MoodyBlue
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Living A Lie
by MoodyBlue ini am sick of living a lie, yet afraid to change it.
married to a man who refuses to listen, who would rather plug his ears and shout "nooooooo" is taking it's tole.
i am afraid to speak my mind about my doubt, my thoughts, and what i'm learning, as i'm not ready to cross that point of no return.
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Things said from the platform
by MoodyBlue ini recalled something said a while back by an elder during a service meeting a while back.
i beleive it was a local needs part on getting out in service.
basically what he said was this:.
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I'm angry and scared
by MoodyBlue ini've been out of the witnesses for a year...and in that span i've become more of a skeptic towards any sort of religion or god.
i don't know if i will ever again have faith in a supernatural, all loving and powerful being.
i suppose this is because the only god i really know anymore is jehovah of the watchtower- who to me is nothing more than a jealous, angry and vindictive creature.
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The guilt factor
by MoodyBlue ini was talking to the hubby over the weekend.
i mentioned the fact that so much of what witnesses do seems to be driven by guilt.
he said "yes, that's because they have a conscience.
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Question about disfellowshipping
by MoodyBlue ini have a question.... if the elders "catch wind" of something that could be a df'ing offense, and they ask for a judicial, if you don't show up or refuse to talk to them, can they disfellowship u in absence??
if they can, is there any legal action that can be taken against it?.
i've been threatened by my jw husband (we are separated) because i've met someone else...he is threatening to tell the elders i'm dating someone else ( though as of yet, no "fornication" has occured and it's long distance) if i don't write a letter of disassociation.
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A lost witnetter
by MoodyBlue ini'm new here, having come after the shut down of witnet... i've been a "lurker" for a while, and figured i should introduce myself.
(and path has been bugging me to post, lol) hopefully i'll be able to add something to conversation.
it's nice to find a site where free speech is cool.... looking forward to meeting all of u:)
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Feels good to be free
by MoodyBlue init feels great to be free.
it feels great to go out with old girlfriends for beer and wings.
it feels great to walk down the street and smile at people i don't know.
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A (sort of) introduction
by MoodyBlue inwow, i haven't posted on here in a long time... i lurked, back in the winter of '00, and posted in early '01 a few times.
looking back on those posts, and other stuff written, it amazes me how much can change... i thought to integrate myself into this web community i'd tell some of my story.... i was not raised in the truth.
i fell in love with a jw boy when i was 20 and married him.
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df'ing in absentia...
by MoodyBlue ini was wondering... can the elders df you in absentia if you haven't admitted to doing anything wrong??.
my ex wanted his scriptural grounds for a divorce and i told him he had them.
he went to the elders with this info and they called me up last night to try and get me to confess ( which i didn't- i told them it was none of thier business) they told me that they were having a judicial for me wed at 7, and i said i wouldn't be there.
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Another sleepless night
by MoodyBlue ini seem to have the posting bug now that i've broken the ice:).
sigh, another sleepness night, racked (wracked??
) with guilt and anxiety.