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Well, I've done it..........
by wannaexit ini have successfully deprogrammed my first dub.. my very good friend has finally seen the light.
i am so happy that the shackles have come off.
she is in the process of reading coc and has stopped going to meetings.. i have made my first apostate disciple.. wannaexit
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Why Depression Sucks.
by shamus inbecause you can make jokes and appear "happy" at the drop of a hat, meanwhile, you're being chewed up from the inside out.
because you can't learn to take one day at a time because your good days are always overshadowed by knowing that you're going to just slip back down again.
it's inevitable.
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The Drive Home Tonight,Crying.
by Blueblades inlet's see,where do i start?i decided to have a quiet drive home after work.it takes about one and half hours.no cd playing,no talk radio,no news, just a quiet drive listening to my own thoughts.i'm not concentrating on any one thing,just kind of letting my mind flow wherever it wants to.. then it starts,my mind goes back to when our children were small.as i'm driving i am having this flashback,i'm going to save my family from dying at armageddon,why the little ones are dependant on us for their future life happiness.. there will be no birthday parties,holiday celebrations,even though one of them was born on the 4th of july.no extra-curricular activities at school,and everyone will know that they don't salute the flag,nor sing the national anthem.and at the infirmary they know that they are not to take blood.. after school homework,the preparing for meetings,more studying comes next.no tv.
tonight,it's a meeting night.oh goody,the weekend is here,now we can go out and play.sorry,we have to go out in field service,mommy and daddy will show you how to have so much fun in the field service on saturday and sunday.. i start to cry,literally,there is real pain in my chest and a lump in my throat.as i have this flashback on the drive home tonight.i think of how i robbed my children of their childhood,i'm getting very emotional and angry,a picture flashes across my mind of all those years,30 plus,that i lost for my wife and children.the opportunities that we turned down,we are going to survive armageddon!.
i have had a talked with my family about my regrets over having put my family through this before and they don't blame me.they feel that i was doing what i thought was the best for them at the time.they forgive me,but i having yet forgiven myself.. the family says that they learned something about life,religion etc.that the experience has not made them bitter,and they have moved on.the children are happily married and doing fine.my wife and i are doing the best that we can with what time we have left.we are in our sixties,no retirement or pension fund.taking it day to day.. this is what happened on the quiet drive home tonight,it's been a year and a half of being inactive and still the flashbacks of the past 30 something years in the watchtower and all of what that has entail in raising my family still wells up inside me when i try to rest my mind and think of nothing.. i cried all the way home for one and a half hours,pain in my chest and heart,my head feeling like it would explode,angry at the society for the big chunk of life that they stole from us.. and i thought of so many others sharing the same feelings and experiences as my family,and those still stuck inside.soon as i arrived home,i collected myself together and said:"hi honey,i'm home!
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My Letter of Disassociation
by seattleniceguy ini've had a few people ask me to post this letter.
this was sent to a small group of people whole friendship i have valued over the years.
all in all, i sent only about 12 copies of this letter worldwide.
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Ex-JW Singles - Post Your Info Here!
by pettygrudger inlots of love connections have been made on this board, and its about time we made a few more!
its been almost a year since there was a thread on this, and i figure its about time for an update.. so, are you single?
if so, post a little about yourself here - perhaps there's a love connection right here on this board!.
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What was your very first job ?
by xjw_b12 in.
do you remember it ?.
did you you learn anything from it?.
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Hello all I am back
by Purple ingreetings everyone after an absence of several months and being offline all that time i just thought i would pop back in and say hello.
i dont know if anyone will remember me but for those that do i say hello and boy has my life changed.
i am now a divorced woman living in a suburb that she has only ever dreamed of living in and am part owner of a singles club and having the time of my life.
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Out of the Loop
by Descender ini'm here for an attitude adjustment i guess.
i'm 28 years old and i'm out of the loop.
i was a witness up until a few years ago when my wife and i faded away.
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Test your morals
by Brummie inbe honest now!!!!!.
with all your honour and dignity, what would you do?
this test only has one question, but it's a very important one.. .
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But I Wont Cry For Yesterday....
by Pleasuredome ina positive message for those who are feeling down.
after a year of being out of the 'mind prison', things seem to be moving in the right direction for me.
i've met the people and am doing things that will make a real difference in my life.