so Oompa, now that you feel better, let me tell you my experience. My father was an alcoholic. By the time my mother divorced him, he already had cirrhosis of the liver. He became a street person, finally died in one of those hotels in the inner city where the folks with no options left wind up. I was glad he died, living with him was a horrible experience, the alcoholism nearly killed all of us. It goes on, too, into the next generations, which is why I'm glad I never had kids. My nephew, the nicest person who ever lived, just died in a horrible car accident due to alcoholism. His little children have no father.
So, my question is, is this what you want for your family? If you want your child to hate you, and your wife to leave you, and to wind up alone and alcoholic and in the streets, keep drinking. If you love your family and want a different future for them, if not for yourself, get to rehab and make it work.
It took me many years to get over my fear and dread of alcoholics. Now I see the bigger picture, and have more pity and sympathy, not just for the alcoholic but also for the family. So instead of basking in the love you find here, get your ass into rehab and bask in the love of your family.
And if this offends the rest of you, kindly accept that I don't give a shit.
...OUTLAW