Cicatrix
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WERE YOU A "GOOD" PUBLISHER?
by minimus inone of the first "privileges" any prospective witness has is that of being a publisher.of course, once you're a publisher,you are one for life.
so, either you are a "good" publisher or a "bad" one.
a good publisher has to get the national average,be a "good" example, and pretty much do whatever the elders ask of you.
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Anyone's take on Donnie Darko?
by Cicatrix ini saw the movie awhile back.i watched it twice and was left feeling?????
yet, somehow i'm still wondering why do i have an emotional connection-what is this reminding me of(no, i have not travelled back in time lol).. when i was a kid, i used to have nightmares about a huge rabbit(i think i watched too many episodes of dark shadows and too many harvey re-runs).maybe that's the connection.i don't know.the movie doesn't scare me, on one level i think it's kind of lame.
still,it made sit up and take notice, but i'm still not sure what i'm reacting to.. anyone else have a take on how it made you feel?
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I'm just curious.........
by WildHorses ini want to get an idea of how many people have left the org in the past five years.
which of the following years did you leave?.
1998 i left.
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Helping children deal with leaving
by Cicatrix ini think it just really hit home with my nine year-old son that this time we are not going to go back to meetings.
he's been asking a lot of questions, and reminiscing about past events nostalgically, yet he is really looking forward to celebrating holidays this year and playing organised soccer next summer.i try to answer his questions to his satisfaction, yet i can sense the confusion he feels and i'm not quite sure how to make him understand ( he seems to think that he shouldn't believe in god because he's not going to meetings anymore,although i've told him that he of course can believe in god).
i imagine all of my kids are going through a similar process as myself right now-good days and bad.some of them wanted to leave before i did, and are handling it pretty well.one of my teenage sons was reluctant about my decision, but i explained to him that my decision to da was my own, and that if he wanted to continue going, i wasn't going to stop him.my daughter, however, discussed the whole silent lambs issue with him, and he was shocked, to say the least,and not so keen on continuing when she told him about this(he told me this himself).. so, for you parents who have been there-do you have any tips for easing their transistion?did you do anything that seem to help your kids?how do you handle kid's questions about religion, when you're not sure of the answers yourself anymore?.
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Favorite books
by StinkyPantz ini love
to read but i've recently gotten bored with it; mostly because i've read all of the books by my favorite authors: stephen king, dean koontz, mary higgins clark, john saul
james patterson.
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Is it normal to feel jealousy???
by butalbee init's been over between us for months now, didn't end very good either.
i do regret hurting him like i did, but at the time, i needed to be free of him and any/all dubs.
i've finally moved on w/ my life, i have a wonderful new man in my life--who treats me like a princess--and i feel lucky to be w/ him.
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Sent my DA letters out
by Cicatrix infinally got up the nerve to send my da letters out yesterday.i sent them in lovely scarlet envelopes(in homage to nathaniel hawthorne's "the scarlet letter")with american flag stamps hehe.i wrote the letters on my hound dog stationary.thought it was fitting, having heard the old "dog returning to its vomit" speech a few gazillion times(hey, my lab and dal eat lots of vomit and they love horse manure-vet says they're the healthiest doggies around:)).. then i went out and bought a little christmas tree and some teeny tiny ornaments.yeah, i know, i'm rushing it a bit.but i really really missed celebrating christmas, and i didn't even admit that to myself until just recently.my kids were absolutely thrilled!
!this year will be their first everything.i'm going to buy them all "my first christmas" ornaments.. but first we have halloween and a few birthdays to do.my sons already got their first invitations to a birthday party.
my kids want me to go trick-or-treating with them.maybe i'll dress up as cruella deville and take my dalmatian puppy,sidhe, with me.. my,my, i'm running on and on like a kid at christmas...and halloween...and ..... it's good to be free.i don't care what the org boogeymen try now.i've said my piece to them,now i'm done with them.i don't have to sneak around and worry about whose seeing me do this or that.i'm the one who has chosen to leave-and you bet your boots i will hold certain ones to their own rules about not speaking to me lol.in this case, what comes around, goes around.i'm just glad to be off the org carousel.i'm a little dizzy yet, but still standing.. hehe-i'm getting punchy.i'm going to go to bed and sleep in on a sunday morning!!!
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Hello Everyone! This is my 1st Post
by UnDisfellowshipped ini have been reading this board since right before dateline.. i want to say thanks to simon for this great website!
i want to thank bill bowen, sheila bowen, barbara anderson, joe anderson, the pandelos, erica rodriguez, and all of the other silentlambs who have spoken out!.
i have some questions.. does anyone have any information about a circuit overseer named orval ellis (he used to be the co in arkansas, and then oklahoma, and just now colorado).
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The Final Solution...
by happysunshine inhow could anyone feel good about a paradise built on the bodies of 6,000,000,000 massacred people?
how could you join this religion and feel like you are doing "the right thing", be happy about such a paradise, rejoice in its righteousness, goodness, and wholesomeness?
i can understand being raised (forced) in it, but joining it?!
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Hollywood Therapy
by Cicatrix inokay,hittin the wall now.the downs are more common than the up days at this early point.i read about post cult trauma syndrome, so i understand now why i feel numb, then angry,then weepy all in a nanosecond, like i'm gazing out of a fishbowl at a distorted world,why i'm having nightmares about congregation members.why my brain feels like a fried egg.why i want to run back to the only life i've known for 20 years, even though the thought of stepping foot inside of a kingdom hall causes me to panic.. sooo, can anyone recommend any good movies to rent to help me process some of this?.
i watched matrix twice,after i saw it mentioned on the discussion board.wow!how chilling.it's funny-i watched this movie while still a wavering dub and it disturbed me.now i know why.. i also like chocolat, the scarlet letter (i'm sending my da letter in a red envelope hehe), and the wall(plan to rent this again ).. i'm reading 1984.. i know i probably shouldn't be so focused on this-i need to start getting out there and finding the positive,and some days i manage to do that, but right now i seem to have a need to try and make sense of it all.. any more suggestions?.
cicatrix.