Topics Started by LaurenM

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The Way JW Females Act
by LaurenM in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
the more i interact with non-jw men and women the more i notice that i still behave like a jw woman.

when i interact with people (men especially) i find myself being super submissive and docile.

acting like i don't have a brain and can't make decisions on my own.
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Disturbing how Christians Feel about Non-Christians
by LaurenM in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
so i posted a question on yahoo answers asking about what christians feel god feels about non-christians.

the overwhelming answer was that he feels they must convert to christianity or risk hell/death/distruction (john 3:16).

i just don't understand how this could be!
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Share Your Personal Experiences Please!
by LaurenM in
1. jw
2. experiences
so since leaving the borg i've made quite a few stupid mistakes, hurting myself a lot..but i finally feel like i've learned and i think, in time, i'll find my happiness again...even more happiness that i could've ever had being a jw.. but my question to you guys is, what was your experience like leaving the borg?

did you struggle at all?

how long have you been out?
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Thoughts About Individuality, Not Living Forever, and the Beauty of Knowing TTAT
by LaurenM in
1. jw
2. experiences
so i guess i like to use this forum to kind of vent my thoughts to people who'd understand..but anyways, i realized i've been out six months now, and if you've read my old posts you'd know that i've made several "mistakes" so far.

i've been kind of promiscuous and have gotten hurt...but despite all that, i feel like these past few months have been the happiest of my entire life!

i finally know what boundaries are good for me and i just feel so..free!
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My Experience with Wordly Guys
by LaurenM in
1. social
2. relationships
sorry, two posts in a day..but i need to vent something: so far my experience with "worldly" guys has not been the best 1. my first guy experience was with a dude who left state and never came back 2. a coworker asked me to netflix and chill and i did 3. a guy wanted to sext me all the time but never took me out on a date and i did 4. a guy who took me on a great date but then asked me up to his apartment immediately after and then didn't call me after 5. finally, another great date, until after the guy texted me asking for nude pics..told him no!

so basically i've concluded that i had been giving off a vibe that i had no self respect and that was confirmed by me allowing them to use me as a sex object..but i'm hoping that not all worldly guys are like this, and when i start acting like i have self respect, they will treat me like that too?

is that a good assumption?
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The Elders are Coming Help!
by LaurenM in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
so the elders keep bugging me and pestering me about having a meeting with them to "introduce me to my new congregation" for some reason (do any ex elders know what that even means??).

i keep postponing and making excuses and they are getting more and more aggressive.

i finally agreed for them to come over today, but really don't want to..should i hide from them again?
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Does Anyone Still Believe in God?
by LaurenM in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
do any of you ex-jw's still believe in god?

even with the new rebranding/softening of this religion, i still don't see how people can believe in him.

the god of the old testimate is an angry murderer who approved rapes and slavery and killed thousands of men, women and children.
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What Convinced you to Leave?
by LaurenM in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
i've been posting here a lot, but these last few weeks have been very difficult for me.

anyways, lately, i've been thinking about confessing everything i've done to the elders and going back, but deep down, i don't really think it's the truth...so my question is, what convinced you it wasn't the truth and that leaving wasn't a horrible decision that everyone in the truth makes it out to be?
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Buddhism Anyone?
by LaurenM in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
so, i have recently been delving in buddhism and i must say it all makes sense!

like, the philosophies and ideas are what i've always believed but could never put a name to.

for example, they don't believe in god, they teach acceptance of all faiths, that peace can be achieved - not by changing other people - but by changing yourself, that everyone has goodness in themselves, that happiness can be gained internally (not externally as a gift from god), and that life is temporary so we should enjoy it!
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Are There Good People Out There?
by LaurenM in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
even though i'm no longer mentally a jw (i still technically am) i do recognize that there are some benefits to being raised one.

for example, the first (and only so far) wordly guy i was involved with had to smoke weed every day and got drunk all the time and that was his idea of fun.

i couldn't help but feel bad for him.