I was a Witness for 50 year. I began to lose my religion after the 1975 debacle.
I have found numerous contradictions in the Witness Literature and would encourage you to do a ot of research. I am. by definition an Apostate.We don't all lie and conspire to deceive Witnesses. Some of the "anti Witness" sites have very accurate infromation that you can verify with the Watchtower CD.
I have hundreds of examples that I am cataloging, but the latest is from the Watchtower, 8/1/62 page 480. They have some interesting things to say about the New World Translation.
I am a Deist. I have concluded there is a God, but I have found no religion to be true, I'm spiritual not religious.
Fred