All I can say is wow. I showed it to my children. I don't really know the person that taped this and they have been taught to always question. BUT about 30 seconds into the playing of it, the two older kids that I let see it, had me stop it and asked all kinds of questions. They don't remember much from the hall except..."raise your hand and say Jehovah."
My son wanted to know if they really DF'ed people without their knowledge. Sad thing is, I was one of those same people on DF number two. They called me, I agreed to a conference call in one week with 3 brothers to be on the line. They never called back. When I called my mom to question this, she told me she could not talk to me and that I had been announced the night before as DF'ed. She did not believe me when I said I did not know anything of this. Many people have looked at me skeptically over the years when I say that. Especially family.
This tape, as my son said (if this is truly for real) gave me validation. After being gone so long, you can wonder if you were young and saw it all through a different perspective. Was it really as cold as I remember? Did I have an attitude that did not show repentance? This tape here just slammed it all back into my face and hit me hard. The stone cold questions they ask, that you sit and pour your f$%^%^&ing heart out to, and all the while they ALREADY knew what they had decided. When the reality hits you that you were just given a meeting of 15 minutes out of a CYA situation (As in my first and third DF'ing) ...You feel so violated. You could never have changed a predetermined decision. It messes with your head and you have anger issues and self worth issues because someone could treat you like that. Especially ones that once you thought were appointed by Gods Holy Spirit...ooooh. I am so mad and have been all day since I watched this.
I want it on freaking Dateline if it is for real. Even if it is to watch them put one hand up in front of the camera and refuse to see them. Anybody know Ted Koppel? Isn't that his name?
Anyhow, it was good for the older kids to see this and to be aware of where in life my other family is and the mind control. We talked about always being patient and non judgmental of people who do not know anything different.
I was talking to a friend today and we discussed that it is hard sometimes to believe the younger guy actually viciously knew and delivered a message he did not believe in. But would that be enough if god (as I said if she exist) was to hand out judgment. I was thinking of the gang leader that was executed.
He advocated the stopping of all he had once so heartedly embraced. But he still had to pay for what he had done. Bear the repercussions (sp) of your actions so to speak. Nobody gave me a break for leaving my husband. I have born everything that has come my way because the fact is I did wrong in the way I left. I had HUGE and UNAVOIDABLE reasons for what I did and how I did it. But just as a person stands with a gun pointed at another human, there is always the choice to lower it and walk away with dignity. The price I paid far outweighed anything that I possibly did. But seeing I lived in the JW world. I paid proper retribution and then some. I am prepaid on retribution, Kharma..or waiting on a reward later. I am into 7 more lifetimes I do believe.
So I wonder what god would do truly at judgment time? (As I said. if there is one) I say it both ways because so many of us have lost faith and others completely believe and still others completely disbelieve.
The kids loved it and my son suggested that this (if it is legit) is a big chunk in history. They will change the policy and there will be less chance to record anything. But this cannot be contained. He suggested Dateline. I told my daughter something to the effect that it feels big, hell, it feels good, exhilarating and heartbreaking at the same time, but it could start a movement. Just like not standing up and taking a seat at the back of the bus.