I was always happy as a Witness. I am not bitter or angry nor was I ever disfellowshipped. Like most others, I just couldnt believe or teach things I knew were wrong anymore. 1914 and the blood issue started me doubting. Crisis of conscience, In search of Christian Freedom along with Gentile times Reconsidered was the end of my blind allegiance to men. I still believe in God, but accept no organized religion as an exclusive channel that God uses. I walked away from the organization along with my wife and 6 year old son and we are all living very happy lives. (Update) The elders came and wanted to me to meet with them, I told them there was no reason to and that I didnt think it was the truth anymore. They disfellowshipped me for apostacy in march 06