Ex-JW Mother attempts suicide with children and fails! My Family Tragedy

by Utopian Reformist 1242 Replies latest members private

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  Aude_Sapere

  Mario -

  What a nice treat to find a message from you.

  Thank you so much for posting. I personally appreciate and truly respect your openness and honesty in speaking with us.

  I am happy to learn that you have real, live people to look in the eye and talk to. An arm to touch, a hand to shake (a shoulder to cry on) are so critical to human survival. Those are things that this board cannot fully deliver for you.

  I have only two things to suggest for you. They are actually simple. But may be huge.

  1. Write more. You honest thoughts. All of them. If not here, than in a journal for yourself and maybe (just maybe) share with a trusted friend or counselor. If you chose to write here and want responses - you know you will get them...!! BOAT LOADS of responses!! If you just want to share with no response, maybe say so. {Not finding my right words but I think you understand the meaning. Get your thoughts and feelings out. Express them. Verbally to your support people. Manually by writing in journal, or typing in computer or typing here - with or without response from friends. Sometimes just the expression alone is powerful in the healing.}

  2. Please let people - including us - know if there is anything specific that you may need. Anything. I completely understand the feeling of indebtedness. Yet I am sure that you can also imagine how absolutely helpless most of us feel. Money is easy for many of us to send. Others may have access to products you might need.

  Know that we consider you family. And we are happy to help anyway we can.

  Thanks again for your posting. I hope you will continue in your healing.

  Hugs and more Hugs...!

  -Aude.
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  Mystery

  It is so good to hear from you Mario.

  And really glad to hear that you are able to spend some time with Marina.

  ((((Mario & Marina))))
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  cruzanheart

  Mario, how absolutely WONDERFUL it is to hear from you! You are taking baby steps and that's exactly what you need to do. You are connecting again with people, and I think I can speak for all of us when I say we are THRILLED!!!!!

  Now, what everyone has told you about your feelings about Tonya are true, but I understand how you feel. I'm half Greek and there is a very strong emotional need to right wrongs -- call it revenge, vendetta, whatever you want -- and take justice into your own hands that other cultures sometimes don't understand. It's strong in Italians and Greeks. When Chris began to have memories of the abuse he suffered at the hands of his father and when his oh-so-holy Witness parents disowned him, I would have gladly taken matters into my own hands to make them feel the pain he felt. However, the American half of me (not to mention the part of me that really doesn't want to spend the rest of my life in prison for shooting a worm of a man) realized that this was probably not the best use of my life on earth and that they weren't worth spending my life as someone's bitch in prison, so I contented myself with a few (well, not a FEW) well-chosen words when I had the misfortune to run into them.

  So keep going to therapy. Here's hoping that Tonya regains her sanity enough to realize what she has done and that it haunts her for the rest of her miserable life. It sounds as though you and Marina are connecting, and that's a beautiful thing, so continue to nourish that. Nourish your own soul every way you can.

  Tons of hugs,

  Nina
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  Big Tex

  Mario, this is a process. You're going to make it. Healing from your tremendous wounds will take time. Hang in there, and please do not be afraid to ask for help.

  Thank you bebu. You are a special woman.

  Chris
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  LoverOfTruth

  What a good Dad you are. Marina is blessed to still have you with her (and she knows that now)
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  LoverOfTruth

  Bebu is indeed a very special lady !
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  bem

  ((((((Mario))))) So great to hear from you I have been checking everyday to see if you had caught us up on things, And I thank you so much for taking time to do that.

  Nina, said this so well.

  So keep going to therapy. Here's hoping that Tonya regains her sanity enough to realize what she has done and that it haunts her for the rest of her miserable life. It sounds as though you and Marina are connecting, and that's a beautiful thing, so continue to nourish that. Nourish your own soul every way you can.

  there is a very strong emotional need to right wrongs -- call it revenge, vendetta, whatever you want -- and take justice into your own hands that other cultures sometimes don't understand. It's strong in Italians and Greeks.

  And I appreciate that Nina also mentioned this. I truly want to understand how you feel. and we all want to help any way we can.

  Dorothy,
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  bebu

  I have come to understand recently that Mario is still in deep financial need. Still searching for a job, no income...

  So, would both posters and lurkers please consider a special (anonymous!) Valentine card/gift....? $

  Mario Juliano Balletta

  P.O. Box 91016

  Johnston, RI 02919

  bebu

  PS: Or... sign your card "from Hubert!"
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  Fleur

  ((((((((((((((((((((((Mario)))))))))))))))))))))))))

  hugs,

  essie
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  Billygoat

  ((((((Mario))))))

  I am so thrilled to hear from you again!!! I can only imagine the grief that you must experience on a daily/hourly moment. If there was anyway I could take some of that burden for you, I would. Just keep focused on getting better, day by day, hour by hour. You are taking baby steps and that is EXACTLY the right thing to do. We're here for you. We're very proud to know you.

  Love,

  Andi