Raised. Preached with "ZEAL". Had doubts about: everyone dying at Armageddon, except "us" and about DFing. Baptised at 13. Wanted Bethel, wanted to missionary, pioneered. "Fell in love" and committed sin; DF'ed at 16. Reinstated at 17. Faded at 18. Family still in. That was over 25 years ago. Now - i am happy with my decision and my life. My son's will not know the ways of the JW's. They have had birthdays and Christmas every year of their lives. They have a mom that is involved in their life. They have a mom that is finally satisfied with, and likes herself. It took a long time for me to say "Hey - I really am OK".