lets see I never could totally be that living forever was not just a dream. That I should feel guilty and not as spritual because I missed a meeting or two. Do jws ever get a break from all of that? I was made to believe that non jws were worldly people. What a bunch of crap. Where are my witness friends now? I have none, they all shun me. The only people in my life now who support me, are those so called worldly people that I was warned to stay away from.
ikhandi
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Looking Back, What's The Stupidest Thing You Believed In As A Witness?
by minimus infor me, it's the "faithful and discreet slave class".
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Depressed beyond Words...
by Shytears indid u ever feel so depressed u felt the only thing that could get rid of the pain was to commit suicide???
?...well i tried that tonite,i know its not a good thing ,but i felt it was the only way out..well im still here so i didnt do it,thank god,my wrists have lil cuts everywhere tho,i just hope no one sees them..if u guys remember me yall know it has been an ongoing battle with my parents cause i dont wanna be a witness.. now i literally cannot do nothing!
they dont trust me at all!
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Babygirl I feel your pain. At one point in my life I went throug a similar situation just like yourself. It pains me to even think of it. Please email me if you want to talk [email protected]
-Michelle
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Movies You Watch Over & Over & Over
by 3acrewood inhave you noticed there are certain movies you just never get tired of watching?
what's does your list include?
here are some of mine (in no particular order as to favorites):.
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A low down dirty shame -seen close to 20 times and still laugh uncontrollably
Friday-chris tucker is a nut
Romeo must die
The matrix
sixteen candles
The breakfast club
Charlies Angles
Cooley High
Double Take
Fast Times at Ridgemont High
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JW's Should Not Wear Too Much Makeup Or Baggy Clothing Per New KM
by minimus inif you weren't quite sure how jehovah god expects you to dress, the april 2003 km helps us to see his viewpoint.
"well-arranged dress shows reverence for god" is the article that assists us to know god's feelings on these matters.
i will give you some quotes from the article: "soon we will have the privilege of being jehovah's guests at the 2003 ' give god glory' disctrict convention.
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These experiences are hilarious. I recall the conventions being a really big fashion show with the sisters. It was all about outdoing the next sister. One could be frowned upon for wearing the same clothes they wore weekly to the meetings. For me I could not just wear what I had in my closet. The convention meant buying three or four new outfits for the occasion and ensuring I had my hair and nails done the day before leaving. Ah I am so glad I am done with all of that.
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Does Everybody turn our okay after leaving?
by Scooby ini am curious... do you know some that have left the truth that become "worse" people?
for years i would hear about some who left the truth and rumours how they are on drugs, in jail, etc.
and many bros and sis would say, "you might as well go out in the world and do all the bad stuff..cuz you're dead at armaggedon!".
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It depends on the indvidual themselves. Some have a very hard time coping with their loss. It is a loss in the literal sense. For what you believed and was engrained in your head as something being the truth. In fact is not the truth. I was miserable as hell when I was a jw and resorted to using drugs which I am not terribly proud of, but it was a coping mechanism for me being unhappy. Since I left the organization I have got my life back on track thanks to a wonderful therapist. I believe all jws who have left the organization would benefit greatly from some type of therapy, especially if this religion has consumed your entire life. Just learning how to fit back in with society was a challenge for me. I am glad I got out this mess while I did, for I am still young and have my whole life ahead of me.
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How BIG was YOUR JW book-bag?
by Scully inwhen i was replying to nicolas' question in another thread, i used the following scripture to show why jws are always so tired:"the scribes and the pharisees have seated themselves in the seat of moses.
therefore all the things they tell you, do and observe, but do not do according to their deeds, for they say but do not perform.
they bind up heavy loads and put them upon the shoulders of men, but they themselves are not willing to budge them with their finger.
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ikhandi
Some of these posts are hilarious, although it has oddly reminded me of my service bag that is in my closet collecting dust. Inside you will find magazines from 1999, a reasoning book and a return visit book. This nonsense will finally make it into a dumpster somwhere in this city. For tommorow is trash day.
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If They Found Out That You Were On This Board, What Would Happen?
by minimus inif the elders, certain family members or your "friends" knew that you frequented this board, what do you think would happen in your life?......personally, i think a jc would be imminent, and i am not talking about the coming of jesus christ, either.
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Who cares? live your life
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After Leaving The Witnesses, How Have You Made Your Life More Satisfying?
by minimus insince so many of us thought that we found the truth, naturally, disappointment has taken it's effect over us.
some still yearn for some kind of inner joy or satisfaction.
is your life better, now that you've seen the truth or are you still struggling inside?
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ikhandi
Minimus where do you get these ques? Anyway for the first time in my life I can truly say I am happy. I am drug free, (almost two years)out of therapy and happy with the person I turned out to be. I am continuing to pursue all the dreams I was told were not important. Why pursue a dream when meetings, study, and field service are to be primary in your life? I received my masters in physical therapy and currently trying to achieve my doctorate. I believe in community service and try to contribute within my community. I am learning to think for myself and not play the game of following the leader. It feels good!
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Where all the Brothers at?
by Gideon ingreetings to all you "free moral agents" in cyperspace.
this is my first post after lurking on this and other boards for over a year.
first i would like to give kudo's to simon for making the site availabe to all who need relief after their "awakening".
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ikhandi
Welcome to the board! Hope you find it as informative an interesting as I have- exjw black sister
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Why Not Just Let It Go?
by ikhandi ini am fairly new to this board, but have been lurking for awhile before i decided to become a registered member.
i have read many posts old and new and can't help but wonder why many of you just don't let it go?
some of you have expressed bitterness and disgust over what the wts has done to you.
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avishai if you feel that strongly and so bitter maybe you need to march yourself right up the wbts up in Brooklyn and tell them about how you have been wronged As far as your comment about Jehovah being able to take insensitve comments that is really disrespectful. Maybe you should think about some counseling? Just as you have a right to freedom of expression so do I