dissonance_resolved
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A day in the life of a fading JW
by dissonance_resolved ini'm five months into my slow fade and it's going so-so.
my saturday morning was spent on a 3-mile jog and taking the kids to the park, which was great, but i'm still shuddering from the potential alternative.
at the last meeting, an elderette literally blocked the exit to prevent my escape and said she just "noticed" that we were in the same field service group and would i like to work with her in service on saturday?
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Mourning a child
by dissonance_resolved ini attended a funeral today for a small child, whose death was an unspeakable tragedy.
it was my first non-jw funeral and indeed the first time i'd ever been in a church.
i couldn't even comprehend what the parents must be going through.
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The Pit of Despair, or going to the DC
by dissonance_resolved inso our dc is coming up and my level of anxiety and depression is through the roof.
i've been fading and have noticed that when i don't go the meetings, i'm happy, calm and positive, but when i do go, it takes at least a week to recover.
so the prospect of three straight days has me in an absolute panic.
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I9s for volunteers
by dissonance_resolved incan you think of any reason why they would start making bethel volunteers complete i9s?
(us work authorization forms).
no compensation is received so why would it be considered employment?.
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Is it a sign from Jehovah or just irony?
by dissonance_resolved inso i signed up to volunteer at a local urban community center- first time i've ever volunteered for a non-jw effort.
i thought i would end up cleaning, organizing, something like that, but the first thing they wanted us to do was go door to door in the neighborhood handing out flyers!
face palm...
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Family is drawing the line in the sand
by dissonance_resolved inso my family has obviously been noticing over the past several months that i've been missing meetings and fs.
i've had excuses sometimes, but not others, so my parents are definitely getting that this is more than a long bout of illnesses or fatigue.
i just received an email invitation to join them in service this weekend.
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Halloween is like celebrating bunnies who aren't important
by dissonance_resolved infrom my young daughter's notebook titled "things to remember about the truth.".
i see i've failed miserably as a jw parent- or maybe not?.
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Ugh... Have to learn to keep my mouth shut
by dissonance_resolved inso my mom was telling me that my aunt is going to be hosting a gb member and wife, cos and do for dinner after their dc this summer.
i immediately blurt out, "that sounds stressful.
" which is met with dead silence.
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Some odd developments
by dissonance_resolved inso things are not making sense at all here in my fade.
as i had posted earlier, i had a long intense talk the other night with my husband where i thought it was crystal clear just where i'm at right now with the wtbts.
then, the same week, he's not feeling well and asks me to take the kids to the mid-week meeting.
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This is so difficult
by dissonance_resolved inso i woke up a few months ago and had no idea what to expect.
at first i was outraged that i had been lied to all these years and so sad that i lost so many years of my life to a cult.
in the past couple of weeks though, i've actually been having second thoughts.