Esmeralda
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My Sister
by Esmeralda inafter being so close to getting a clue about the "truth",my oldest sister is way back in it, deeper than ever.. i love claire dearly, and i know that in her way, she loves me too.. i believe the problem in our relationship lies in that when it all comes down to it, at the end of the day, we don't really like each other very much anymore.
this knowledge saddens me more than i can explain.. it wasn't always this way.. we did fight a lot as children.
perhaps it's the eight year age difference.
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A child's innocent questions about shunning
by Esmeralda inone night last week, my five year old daughter couldn't fall asleep.
we could hear her upstairs as she tossed and turned a bit, then finally reappeared from her bedroom and crept down the stairs.
"what's wrong?
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Disfellowshipping: A protection in the end?
by Esmeralda inwell, the year is nearly out, and as the new one approaches i'm thinking back on 2 years of being in the online exjw community and, in june 2002, my four year anniversary of my df'ing.. when first i came to h2o seeking comfort and support in january 2000, i had been df'd for a year and a half and online nearly 4 years but never had the guts to type "jehovah's witnesses" into a search engine.
that search led me to freeminds (thanks, randy *hug*) and then, to h2o.. what a journey its been.
i've gone from devastation at losing my family, to anger, through the anger to numbness, back through sadness, and now after much soul searching and a chance change of circumstances last summer, come to look at my disfellowshipping in an entirely new light.. those who know my history know that i was born into the borg, baptized at 12, married at 19, and was a very loyal, unquestioning dub until the age of 24 when the elders told me that my miscarried babies had no status with god.
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An Early "Happy New Year" to Everyone!
by Esmeralda ini know i'm a little early with this but i don't know if i'll have time to post it later...so here is something i assembled just for you all :).
: http://wtsurvivors.homestead.com/fireworks.html.
thanks for all the love, support, and sharing of tears and laughter in 2001. may 2002 be a lot kinder...to all of us.. *hugs* and love.
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Small Souls, Enormous Grief
by Esmeralda ini wish to god that i could give amanda higley and her family what they truly want most for christmas.. amanda nicole higley is just four years old.
"so i can fix daddy's building.".
"i'll fix daddy's building.
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"Mom, why would He do such a thing?"
by Esmeralda intonight, as my husband was driving our daughter home from ballet lessons, she spoke up quietly from her booster seat in the rear of the car..
"justin?".
"yes, leah?".
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frustration
by Esmeralda ini just hate the way that so many people treat eachother, inside the org and out.
it bothers me so much, the way many treat eachother in this forum.. i hate all the baggage that we leave the organization with.
does anyone ever really get rid of it all?.
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Dr Phil's "Get Real Challenge"
by Esmeralda ini was just wondering if anyone is watching the dr. phil get real challenge that will be running all season, on tuesdays on oprah.. i'm curious if anyone wants to kind of 'buddy up' in a small group and follow the program and writing exercises (there is an online workbook).
please let me know if you're interested.
i'm emphasizing "small" for the sake of really being able to interact and not letting it get out of control.
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To rem: Re: Keirsey Personality Types
by Esmeralda inhey rem,.
i saw your post in the astrology thread and decided to start a new discussion here about keirsey.
i noticed how many people have been enjoying the silly little emode tests and immediately thought they'd really be amazed by keirsey.
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Sacrifices of spouses/families of exJW teachers
by Esmeralda ini have tears in my eyes now after reading jukief's posts about the sacrifices that alan has made to teach us all so much.
i remember when i made my first tentative post almost 2 years ago on h2o asking questions about custody issues and jw spouses.
alan was the first person who answered my inquiries, offering references for me to look at.