beckyboop
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Just checking in .....
by BobsGirl init has been quite a while since i have posted.
life has been a whirlwind this year!
i just wanted to say hello to those of you that remember me, and to let you know that while i don't say so often, many of you have given me strength when needed.
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Dealing my own sexual abuse
by Valis ini've mentioned it a few times, but between the ages of 5-7 i had my two female cousins living with me.
my parents were doing them a favor by letting them live there, but what they didn't know was the prior sexual abuse and molestation by members of their/our family...well, it is in my opinion the trickle down theory of abuse and i also know and remember doing some of the same things with my own siblings even a couple years after they weren't there any more.. i often ask myself.
am i responsible for that?
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Mom's Being Guilted to Shun Me
by Lutece ini thought my mom would never change, that she'd never really go along with the shunning, but last night she wouldn't let me stay to eat at their house when my dad made dinner.
my parents and i have been close all our lives, we've been through a lot together and for her to say that she has to be getting a lot more counsel from the elders.
she is being guilted into shunning me, hoping it will help me eventually come back to the truth.
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Advice needed on headache and muscle pain relief
by LyinEyes inthis week starting last saturday, i have been having a severe migraine or tension headache.
i have tmj and fibromyalgia,,,,,,i have been treated for all of these things.
right now , nothing is working, i mean nothing.
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Death anxiety......ever happen to you?
by shotgun inthe other night i'm in bed trying to fall asleep with my tornado of thoughts swirling this way and that and for no apparent reason i started to have an anxiety attack thinking about death.
it was easy to accept so many things about death when you believed it's never going to happen or that if it does i'll be back..just like arnold.. when i speak to non-dubs they don't seem to experience it as much because death has always been an accepted part of life to them.. i can't go back to thinking like a dub and i admit i'm a non-bible believer now and not even sure about the existence of god..at least not the biblical one.
so i guess i can only look forward to a long healthy life and hope that the last thing i see before i die is the face of my daughter holding her grandchild.. have many of you had this anxiety attack after leaving the borg?.
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I need a drink...
by Vivamus ini feel so down.
i am beginning to think i am the kind of person that just walks away from their problems, instead of confronting them.
when people hurt me, i will hardly ever show it, voice my feelings or anything.
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The reality of obesity
by Lady Lee inwhen i was a jw there were a few sisters i knew who had serious weight problems.
i now have a couple of friends who are obese.
i have a weight problem also (about 40 pounds over my best weight).. i was out with my girlfriend today.
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Do you still love your relatives/friends who shun you?
by HadEnuf inas i was participating in my daily duties of domestic slavery i got to ruminating about my mom, sister and brother who are shunning me (even though i am neither df'd of da'd).
i got to thinking to myself that i don't really miss them all that much.
in fact; i almost feel that i have lost the abundance of love that i once felt for them...well, except for my brother who i have never gotten along with anyway.
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Do you regret ever getting baptized
by ikhandi inthousand of witnesses do it every year and for what they believe are good reasons.
i did it because i was pressured by elders.
its interesting to note how elders can target young people into committing their life to something they really know nothing about.
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Handling anger badly
by Billygoat inlast night neil and i snuggled up on the sofa to watch a movie over a left over dinner.
we had both worked late and were tired.
we wanted to just relax and not think.