Wow! I was not expecting so many comments. I wrote this at 2AM and I just finally came home from work. Let me clarify some things.
He and I have had sex a handful of times (1-2 times a month). We have not had sex every weekend, but he has spent the night a few times. We have not had sex in the last month. Usually, we go on regular dates to movies, dinner, the zoo, etc. We are not just bed buddies.
His family does know about me because he lives with them and he and I have spent a lot of time together. I have met his father and two of his nephews.
He and I have had deep discussions about his beliefs, however I am very knowledgable and will look things up he says and sometimes I find things that contradict what he says. I think he might have suggested his mother because she knows more then him. He has invited me to church and told me he would go with me if I ever wanted to see what it was about.
He said he is scared to get into a relationship with me because I remind him of his ex. He and his ex were good friends and then they started dating and then they argued and broke up and now they don't talk. He told me that he loves me and he always wants me to be part of his life. He said that his biggest fear is losing me in his life. I can't tell if that is genuine or just a line.
I have been reading the material, and I do agree with many things in the booklet(Similar to christianity), but then there are things I really don't agree with (Jesus is angel Michael, views on heaven/hell) and I have been researching scripture to really decide how I feel about these things. In the booklet, they say that Jehovah is written as God's name 70 times in scripture. But, when Iooked Jehovah up in original Hebrew, I only saw it written 4 times as just Jehovah. But I did see variations such as Jehovah-Jirah, Jehovah M'Kaddesh, Jehovah Shalom, Jehovah-Rophe, etc.
Because I don't know much about the "unspoken rules" of being a JW, I am not sure what to do. Based on what I am reading on this forum, it sounds a little like a cult (and I hope I don't offend anyone by saying that~ that is not my intent). I am afraid to dip my toe in the water and get trapped in something I don't fully agree with.
I just want to study this and make an educated decision on what is best for me.
My biggest fear is that he is just using me and at this point, I can't tell. Since we don't have sex that often, I don't feel like he is using me for sex. I have been tempted to ghost him (Block him and erase his phone number). I feel like that is the only way I can really end it and stick to my decision to do so.