Kairos,
Your current dilema sounds a lot like what I went through 4 years ago. I finally faced ttatt. Couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, lost 30 pounds in about 2 months, constant burning in my stomach. I finally checked myself into a mental health facility because thoughts of suicide began to surface. I finally got to talk to a non-judgemental person about how I felt regarding the religion that I was brought up in and was part of for 6 decades. Life changing events do take a toll.
Today, I'm a very happy guy knowing that I was not going crazy. My wife, who is "still in, an I are fine and she is beginning to see a very different, but better, person.
Get some professional help!
just sayin!
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