I was basically raised as a jw since I was 4. I was a "golden boy" in the organization. Started giving public talks when I was 18 and was appointed as an elder when the elder arrangement first began in 1972 at the age of 22. Lost my faith in 1976 but continued to serve as an elder till 1979. "Regained" my faith in 1990. Became an elder again but once again lost "my faith" after 1995 yet continued to serve as an elder for several more years. Looking back, I don't think I ever had "faith", I was just indoctrinated very well.