Aunt Connie, here is how you come accross:
''I am soooo good and loyal and everyone else is crap. I DESERVE better, I DESERVE respect etc, everyone else is worthless, bums and nutjobs. I gave my life to the cause and nobody cares''.
Connie, you DO have a choice like it or not. Do you think getting out of the Watchtower is easy? A cop out? It means one is WEAK? Leaving the witnesses was the hardest thing i ever had to do, it cost me my wife, my kids and my house and all my friends collected over my life. It was get out or die, I choose to get out and rebuild.
First thing you need to realize is that Jehovah is not real, then that the Organization is nothing but a publishing and real estate corporation. Get angry that you have been conned then get out and get a life while you still can.
Stop playing the victim and take off that judgement hat you wear.