I hear you on that, too, dear N.Drew (again, peace to you!). Brings to MY mind and heart two things, the first one my dear husband used to always tell me:
"Feel the fear... and do it anyway."
Which leads to the second thing, which is that that is how faith is often manifest: one feels fear... but obeys the spirit... and speaks the truth to those he/she is sent to... anyway. I have personally learned that it is when I take that leap... knowing, though, by means of my FAITH... that our Lord will "catch" me... that I receive the greatest "rewards" (MORE understanding, MORE truth, etc.). I do the work FIRST... in FAITH... and THEN I receive "the reward" - more work.
When I try to play it safe, though... while there may be rewards in that, too, yes, they pale in comparison to those I receive when I take on the "harder" tasks that require GREAT faith. Like putting myself out there, not knowing if/how I will be RECEIVED... but knowing that it's not about me... and MY truth, anyway... but about him... and his.
Do your thing, my sister... as the Spirit directs YOU... and reap the "rewards" he has for YOU.
Again, peace to you!
Your servant, sister, and fellow slave of Christ,
SA