I feel ya talesin. I hope things get better for you soon.
I wish I was dead ...
Would it help to talk in more detail about your thoughts and feelings?
If you don't want to do so in a public post, how about PMing someone?
Hoping your day is a bit brighter. Thinking about you.
you will. Just be patient. Thats the only wish that for sure will come true. Its just a matter of time. In the meantime may I suggest to enjoy whatever time we have left?
Greetings, dear Tale... and the greatest of love and peace to you! You're right, life is hard. For some, much harder... and more often harder than not. And, sometimes it's just plain tiresome. I have learned, however, that it isn't the "big" stuff that makes it bearable; it's the small stuff (the love of a child/spouse... or even the affection of a puppy). I don't want to just parrot others and say "This, too, will pass"... because I don't know what "this" is - some things don't pass... or don't pass soon/easily enough.
BUT... that fact that you let us know you're suffering in some way... and WANT to be encouraged... let's ME know you're not "done" with it all, yet, dear one. And that is a GOOD thing.
I don't have anything to offer in the way of encouragement, though, except to say that YOU... encourage ME. Often. Yours are among the comments that I look forward to reading, that I don't go, "Groan... oh, crud... what is SHE gonna say to me, now?" LOLOLOL! And there are a few of those, let me tell you - LOLOLOLOL!
You have often spoken up on my behalf, even though we are at opposite ends of the faith spectrum. But that's irrelevant: love, compassion, and genuinesness isn't exclusive to christians (contrary to what some "christians" may want you to believe - LOLOL!). I get all of that from you... and as a result have come to love you. As many here do, I am sure.
That's really all I can offer, dear one... but it's the truth: you make ME smile... and you help me maintain my love for mankind. Which isn't always easy. And you make it easy to love those who are not "like" me... which is one thing my Lord commands me to do. It's easier, isn't it, to love those who agree with you, see things just as you do, walk as you walk? But people like you help people like me to take it to a greater level... and for that, I am truly grateful.
So... do what you need to to take care of yourself, mentally and emotionally, as well as physically. If that means calling out for "help" here, do that. Do not be afraid... and do not hesitate. There is SOMEONE here who can help, one way or another. Even if it's just words, advice, or "I know how you feel, girl."
But don't give up (not that I think you will). Never give up.
Again, the greatest of love... and truly, PEACE, to you!
YOUR servant and a slave of Christ,
How the face that I see in the mirror More and more is a stranger to me
More and more I can see there's a danger
In becoming what I never thought I'll be.
Somedays are diamonds, somedays are stone Somedays the hard times won't leave me alone
Sometimes the cold wind brought chill to my bones
Somedays are diamonds, somedays are stone.
Life can be a real struggle at times. When we are feeling low, negative feelings can take a hold of us. Think of the good times you have had and promise yourself that you will enjoy some more before your story ends. It really is always darkest just before the dawn.
Can't offer any sage advice. Can only hope you feel better soon.
Life is like...
Seriously though...Hope everything will be okay.
I tried to kill myself on Aug 13, 2005. When I didn't succeed I went into rehab instead. Better choice. The first year was a struggle, since then things have been a lot better even though I've had some situaional stuff like family health issues and lack of a job.
As pointed out above, we all end up under the grass instead of on top of it some time.
Know that a lot of people care about you.