Oh dear so many posts and not anough time with a new baby to reply to all....:s
Right let me address some things people think i am going back for and why i shouldn't...
Going back to be loved part of a family or a boyfriend -no, I am happy enough with the friendships I have so i will allow for new friendships but it isn't an issue for me as to why to go back. Also I don't want a new man in my life atm so going back to avoid a new relationship might be a better arguement, as I know men are men, and a single mum outside of JW's would make men see me as a easy lay not to commit too, but inside JW's men will be still be put off by my situation. (am i cynical about men? yes I am but thats all men in and out of JW's lol)
Going back because i'm scared of armegaddon or outside society - I would say i'm disillutioned with an outside society that that sexualises everything, making people think sexual intimacy is more important than emotional intimacy, The bible makes me think we are in "end of days" atm the scripture I can't get out of my head is "Lovers of pleasures rather than God", armegeddon itself doesn't scare me so much as I want a relationship with God that is correct.
Is jesus God? - What puts me off other Christian religions is the idea of the trinity basically making Jesus into God, I have studied the scriptures personally in the bible using, 3 different versions of bible and nothing I have read for me shows jesus is God, yes like the above posters shows no one can "know God but through Jesus" but that doesn't mean jesus and Jehovah are one being, in fact the way those scriptures keep defining Father and son as separate would for me uphold the JW view in this respect. Also these scriptures mean jesus opened the path for us to have a relationship with jehovah which maybe why we can use his name and know him. I was surprised how few are the religions in christianity are mono-theistic, this for me is the strongest arguement for JWs and always has been.
JW lies - there no getting around the fact that in predicting the "End of times" and swapping and changing with "generations" and 'new light' they have lost a lot of credibility, I always knew this would be an issue even as a young JW and probs why I have not as much issue with it as some, its one i struggled with even before the generation stuff, I can remember even thinking as a child they were getting into hot water, especially as none can know time and place and the best we can be is in expectation.
Well with the above the only way to address it is to find an alternative Christian religion that has it right! and that is what I did but find I have to address the faith teachings of other Christian faiths first, that they all have there own set of teachings that have to be looked at individually, and after looking I can't say they are any better especially with a view to teachings but i won't specify because my conclusions are from personal observation and thats all anyone can do.
(btw if you hold the lies JW's teach against them why is it so easy to accept the proven lies of Christmas etc? i wonder about this with people that throw the lies thing at me a lot? is a lie more acceptable because more people accept it?)
I am a real person! and my struggles are real but I am pro-witness atm so what I write will reflect this.
To be honest I can't see anyone being effected by my words on here, from what I read most people take the comfortable postion that i'm deluded, too brain-washed etc I would argue against both because conclusions i've come to is from researching the bible again. I will say Jgnat maybe right in that I have looked for reasons to support my set postion already but if the arguements had been strong enough I could have been swayed.
I don't like that ultimately my position is Jw's are the best of a bad bunch and allow me to have a relationship with Jehovah as well as jesus which no other christian religions offer. Give me a better option and I'll look into it. but bear in mind you have to show me that another faith has it right doctrinely.
Making my own religion isn't an option mainly because i don't feel inspired to set up a new christian faith, but i do think the 'not forsaking the gathering together' important, isolation does breed problems.