I'm new and nervous!

by kitten whiskers 90 Replies latest jw friends

  • kitten whiskers
    kitten whiskers

    Hello! I am new here and have been "lurking" for several months. The discussions have helped me tremendously to break free from the Society. I want to thank you all for your help and heartfelt posts. As well as the laughs I found here. (ex.: Armegeddon being so close you could stick out your tongue and touch it! That got me through hearing about the D.C. from relatives without cowering in fear that they could be right!).

    The road is rough right now and i am coming to terms with everything. I feel I needed to finally join in an effort to help others who are now finding this site and their way out as well. This past week was very difficult. I kept concentrating on what some of you have written to encourage others and used your kindness and experiences to get me through my personal trials.

    A little background on me: I was raised in the "truth" and have also had to overcome the fear of Jehovah destroying me for not agreeing with the Society. Still get nervous about if I am doing the right thing (feeling as if I am about to shake in fear quite literally),even though my reasoning has shown me what a control tactic that is and goes against the bible. The Beoreans got to question the apostles and were commended! I tried so hard to make Jehovah happy. Was as perfect as I could be. Have always felt nothing I do is ever good enough. Whether for my mother or the organization. You know how much we were told we were good for nothing slaves just doing what we ought to, which should always be more, even if we were pioneering, giving up education and didn't have 20 cents to our name. That's how it was as a teenage pioneer fresh out of highschool for me. Married the most wonderful man in the world! Have 2 beautiful children and feel completely blessed.

    We are both on our way out and loving the life of choice we can now give our babies!!!! It took years for us both to get to this point, but we are so thankful we have seen the light. (though it took me quite a bit longer!!!) I really have devoted much time to reading this site and gleaning from your experiences. I did not give up on God, though i was angry and felt like it at times, I am now reading the bible and enjoying it! Can you believe it? I find it amazing that as a JW it was such a chore and now is a delight! What a contrast!

    Thanks again for being here and allowing me to join you!

    Kitten Whiskers

    ( From the "Sound of Music" song "my favorite things" "Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens" I just had to pick something that makes me smile, you know, for "when the dog bites, when the bee stings"--when i'm being shunned---"I simply remember my favorite things and then i don't feel so bad")

  • fullofdoubtnow

    Hi kitten whiskers, and welcome to the forum!!

    You are right about this board, it is so helpful for those leaving or thinking of leaving the jws. There is potentially so much to lose, isn't there? All your friends, and perhaps all your family could suddenly decide to shun you, which is a hard thing to take, as it can happen almost overnight.

    I am happy that both you and your husband have realised the truth about the org together, and look forward to hearing more from you soon.


  • Double Edge
    Double Edge

    Hi K.W..... A BIG HOWDY! and WELCOME to the board!! Most people are nervous when they first post, you'l get over it quick. Just type your little heart away and press ENTER, that's all there is to it. And don't worry one way or another how many responses (if any...hehe) you get, you're truly among friends. Glad you could join us....I look forward to hearing more about you.


  • diamondblue1974

    Welcome to the forum KW and really pleased you found the bottle to post at long last.

    There is no need to be nervous as you are in good company; also too you are not going to be struck down by a bolt of lightening for asking questions and putting those that make grand statements to the test.

    You were given a brain, its no sin to use it.

    Enjoy your time here and I look forward to seeing other posts from you too.

    DB74 (Gary)

  • Ironhead

    Welcome to the board kitten whiskas. You're among friends here.

  • mariposa


    I was nervous too about posting at first! This board has helped me tremendously and it's great to see what it's doing to others as well!

    I really like your name fron the sound of music, I know that flick like the back of my hand

  • greendawn

    Welcome to the forum, there is no need to be nervous as most people here can readily identify with the way you feel as you get ready to leave the JWs after realising they are just a cult, and are willing to help. Many thousands have gone down the same way.

  • kitten whiskers
    kitten whiskers

    Thank you all SO MUCH for your encouragement and friendship! I look forward to our future conversations together! I love to sit here in the morning with my coffee and see what is going on here! Talk to you soon!

    Kitten Whiskers

  • Lady Liberty
    Lady Liberty

    Dear Kitten Whiskers,

    Welcome to the forum!!!! We are so glad this sight has been of help to you! I too was helped by this site, it helped me to see I wasn't crazy for my feelings, and that others were sticking up for "truth", though it was far different from the "truth" I had always known it to be. I too was raised a Witness as well as my husband. We were VERY strong in the organization. Yet when I realized that what I was teaching others was a lie, I could no longer participate. We still have a VERY strong love for Jehovah and his son as well. Many here have been so disallusioned, that they have left everything. My hope is one day they will realize that they can have a relationship with God and that he truely cares about them and what we all have been through. How long have you both been on your way out? Do you have family still in? My husband and I have been out for about a year and a half. Though we have not been disfellowshipped nor have we formally disassociated ourselves, (our family that is in say by us not attending we have done that). Anyhow, they recently told us they want to meet and we have decided to tell them no. So.. I don't think things will be quiet for long here.

    Again. Welcome, and we look forward to hearing your story.


    Lady Liberty

    P.S The sound of music is one of my old time favorite classic movies. Your choice in names makes perfect sence to me!

  • ICBehindtheCurtain

    Welcome Kitten Whiskas ! This site is awesome! There are great people on here as you probably already noticed, a whole lot to read, and many different opinions, but you are free to make up your own mind and not be shunned for it, what is great here is that some of us may have different beliefs yet we mostly get along great. My husband my 2 kids and I are on our way out also, haven't gone to a meeting in over 2 months which is the longest without going so far, and it's wonderful not to have to waste my precious time listening to that mind numbing stuff. We have helped quite a few out also. Today I can honestly say that we are happier and more at peace than we have ever been, we basically believe in God and thats all. Good luck on your journey!


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