Ryry Welcome to the board this is just the beginning for your to reach out and find friends to help you. Since you have access to the internet make use of it to find answer for yourself that you may have on religion, or whatever is upbuilding. I say kill them (shunners) with kindness and you never know one day they may have questions about what real love is as Jesus taught his followers. Look up articles on disfellowshipping under jwfacts.com and get some insight on how you have been treated.
If you were a JW by having parents that were JW's then really ask and answer for yourself what your beliefs are by reading the bible and other bible aids that the Watchtower. Do not isolate yourself from people as there are many good people out there in the world that will be good friends and not judge you.