You give 'touching' answers indeed
I warned you. My post last night shows the danger of posting while sick with the flu after having a hot toddy. I regret the way it reads now - even more 'touched' than usual and I'll probably regret this one in a few hours. Oh well.
The sister you studied with 34 years ago would not give you the same answers today .. and you know why. (If she is still alive) she in good conscience could not even give you the time of day. As an apostate now, you are considered unworthy to her and you always will be if your beliefs stay as they are.
Her name was Guila McDonald. She was a sweet old lady, who sat on the floor with me and studied only the Bible. We never once used the Society's literature and we studied together over a year before my parents started. I was luckier than most in that I was taught emphatically to never put the Society's words above the Bible, her reasoning (and one I still agree with) is that the faithful & discreet slave are fallible.
She was the first truly kind person I had ever met, and I still view her coming into my life as a gift from God. She passed away over a decade ago. Would she still talk with me? I'd like to think she would, but who knows? Honestly most of my JW friends started shunning me while I was still active, i.e. going
to meetings, service, et al. Not because of 'apostate' thinking but because I had the gall to stand up and say I was abused. Apparently that revelation, in their eyes, made me damaged goods. It was their hostility and shunning that led me to investigate what the JW teaching was, which then in turn led me out of that organization. As with Mrs. McDonald (never called her sister) I view their cruelty as a gift from God. It was the only thing that would have pried me away from that sect.
I still have JW friends, my best friend is in fact an elder. Yes they know what I think (I've never been shy about saying what I believe) but we all have reached an understanding. We care for each other enough to put aside differences in religion. We agree to disagree and let it go.
As for being unworthy, well there I certainly agree with you. I cannot imagine what I bring to any friendship, and I understand even less why anyone would want me as a friend. But like other things I don't understand, cruelty to children, algebra and quantum physics, I accept it as a reality.
do you not feel you might be the object of that rage by turning people away from the truth?
Certainly, and I am prepared to accept the consequences if God is as you, and the Witnesses, claim he is. I long ago came to the conclusion I would rather be murdered by that God than live in a world ruled by an organization that condones pedophilia, punishes children who seek help and cares more for money and image than people.
It is a matter of history that your attitude, as quoted above, has been used by other religions to harm people, to force them to do acts against their will. Wars, rapes, torture and every atrocity one human can do to another has many times been done all in the name of God, and all because they believed were doing "God's will".
I submit that if God has plans to destroy this world, and kill billions of people, then he has a responsibility to step forward and let us unworthy humans know what he wants. Not from some religious sect who cannot defend itself against honest questions, but from God himself and in a way we unworthy humans can understand and accept. That he doesn't says more about a loving, kind and inclusive God than it does a vengeful, harsh one waiting to kill billions of people.
17 years ago when I was still in, I prayed constantly to God. Show me (I'm from Missouri), tell me where to go. I choose to believe he did. A door was opened. (Careful what you ask God for, he might just give it to you.) I look back now in amazement I was ever part of that sect. What I hear from you, is remarkably similar to what I heard from 9 elders all those years ago: come to meetings, go out in service or God will kill you. No, that's not a God of love. One who truly loves, do so unconditionally. Jehovah's Witnesses rule people through fear; fear of death, fear of shunning, fear of peer pressure and on and on. Rather like your post to me (come back or else), eh?
Be well,
Chris