Programmed to believe the WT as Jehovah's organization was entitled to boss me and deny my right to make decisions about my life. Until the cog diss kicked in so hard, i couldn't make any more excuses for the crap going on. It became so obvious, if there was a God and he had an organization on earth, this corrupt bunch of hypocrites sure as hell was not it.
I stopped going in service - i asked myself, What am I really inviting people to do? I can't in good conscience invite anyone to become a part of this festering pile of BS. Soon as I skipped more and more meetings, the rusty wheels began to turn and independent thinking began. I realized i belong to ME, not the to the WT society.
Also, one of my grandmother's cousins was named Ione. I just changed the spelling.