Im sick of my life

by BlackWolf 73 Replies latest jw friends

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    So sorry. Please, go to see a specialist. You sound like having serious depression. It is far more than "spiritual" problem. Being in your situation doesn't help. But if you have right treatment then you really can move on. If you don't sort out your emotions first, no choice is going to be good.

    Do take care after yourself.

  • sherrie11
    I brought up a young teen my daughter in the organisation We re both out now and I have granddaughter who knows nothing about our past except when we speak a funny god language between ourself My daughter is going through so she has a daughter. Much pain from our past. Much pain with teenager.Much pain also dealing with a beautiful teenager… who is a normal teenager…the one thing we agree on is let her be herself. So young lady lay low.Find out what you want! Take one step at at at a time. Find your own belief system and try to understand your parents are inculcated in a cult.
  • KateWild


    I don't know if you will see this as you're not on often, but I have followed your whole story on here. I am very concerned for you and you only seem to have this forum as an external outlet to express yourself.

    You need a real friend. I hope you can build the courage to get out your house and mix with people your age very soon.

    Take Care

    Kate xx

  • Witness My Fury
    Witness My Fury

    The crowd on reddit tend to be younger so you might want to be on there too.

  • The Searcher
    The Searcher

    Finkelstein's words are spot on, I think - "play along until you can move out on your own when you can. Pretentious as it may be, its really your only choice for now ."

    You can prepare to walk through a minefield by learning how others have managed to survive their experience.

    Don't tell anyone your specific concerns about the Corporation - especially your parents! Simply tell them that you have personal issues which you are dealing with in prayer, and that you are grateful for their concern.

    Rinse & repeat. Stick with this "firewall" and you will give no one anything to pin on you. Give them any "excuses", and the wolves will smell blood - yours!

    Never forget - no one can force you to tell them your private & personal thoughts.

    If anyone pushes you, (especially the elders) ask them if they'd tell you their deepest & most private thoughts!

    I wish you peace and success.

  • BlackWolf
    Thank you everybody. I know I'm just going to have to stick it out until I'm 18 but my biggest problem right now is the pressure to get baptized. I've told my mom I'm not ready yet but she bothers me about it constantly. I'm starting to run out of excuses.
  • Witness My Fury
    Witness My Fury

    Just say Jesus was baptised at 30 so if that was good enough for him....

    If you get pressure just say that the more they harp on about it the less inclined you are to do it.

    (do not reward poor behaviours)

  • BelleStar
    Dear Blackwolf, I feel your pain and distress so much, there are so many people on this forum who really do understand what you are going through, There has been some great advice given on this thread, I hope you can take it and use it to help yourself. Is there anyone in your extended family that could help you ? Grandparents, cousins, if so reach out to them. Once you are of age things will change. Please stay in touch with the forum as we are here to help. Could you perhaps live with another relative ? or even look around for someone who needs a live-in groom for their horses. Drastic I know but you will escape one day, my only fear is that the world can be a big place for one so sheltered. The world can be a scary place but it can also be an amazing place and it's your for the taking. I used to feel just like you, my life was so unhappy but as soon as I broke away at 16 my life began and I never looked back. Good Luck.

  • OnTheWayOut
    You have to resist baptism to have even a chance at a relationship with parents. Witness My Fury is right. With absolutely no excuses, just say no.
  • Makemeanunbeliever
    Baptism will not make you "fit in" or make your life "better" unless you absolutely want to and understand the full ramifications it. Take your time. Do it because "you" want to not because everyone else is doing or parents make you. Ask your parents, does God want me to get baptized if I don't feel Im ready?

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