My Dear Wounded Heart:
I've been wondering for some time what has attracted, and then held, my attention and participation on this board. And now I read your post.
I was for almost ten years in relationship with a young woman who was suffering Multiple Personality Disorder. We began our relationship before the MPD was known; and in fact, the initial relationship was between myself and one of her alternate personalities - although no one knew it but the alternate. And I stayed with her - I could do nothing else - from before initial diagnosis until reunification. I hope I can help you, and I'm very willing to try.
If you want to conduct discussions privately, I'll be happy to exchange emails with you directly.
For starters, it would be helpful to know: (I just made and then deleted a list of questions). Perhaps it would be helpful for you to say what you feel comfortable saying about your situation and then we could go from there?
Let me say that my partner was sexually abused by a pair of JW special pioneers who also were into Satanism on the side. (Boy, what a group of happy swingers those wild and crazy Jehovah's Witnesses are, huh?). She began to have intrusive recall when she was 28 years old, and then the healing began. Yes, the recall is part of healing. An experience hard to bear, but it is a part of healing.)
I want to reinstate a few of those questions that I deleted if that's OK:
Are you safe now?
Are you in therapy?
Was Satanism involved?
Do you have an Inner Self Helper?
Are you the original personality, or are you an alternate?
No more questions now, even though you invite them. You must know that too much prying might well evoke a negative response from an alternate and then you might not get the help you need.
I will be standing by in case you would like to go ahead.