I don't know what to believe. What does that make me?
That makes you the kind of person that I make a mental note to pay attention to on this board.
It also makes you very honest. A quality I genuinely admire.
I do not feel sad over my years (wasted?) as a JW but one thing I have promised myself is that I will no longer listen to anyone who
claims to have it right (this time?)
states what they believe as a fact
Everything (except for some vegetation and a few animals) is here longer than we are. We can find our place in the universe, everything else does.
There was a quote in a Watchtower years ago - dont remember who and am disinclined to go look, it was "Some say time flies? Alas time stays, we go"
In view of that, there is a lot to learn in a short amount of time. I just cannot afford to let myself be reeled in by people who think they have the answers.
At the end of the day, who is happy? Who is questioning and yet with an easy free soul? Who do people gain from in just the merest interaction with them - even if its transacting a purchase at a register? We akk see these people around...they exist.
What do those people think? What moral compass do they steer by and why?
No more fake happy - if I act happy people will think I am "of God" - like I see a lot of religious people project. I swear, its like a mask. Cant you see it? The televangelist sneer?
All the people who are in a hurry to find a new belief - nope. Not interested in that either. Whats the hurry? We arent chickens, we dont have to hurry and find our place in the pecking order. Ok, well some evidently do but I am not interested in it.
Lastly, anyone who strives to be a leader. Not a naturally occurring leader but someone who wants it and works toward it as its own end game.
Im staying away from those people too.
So to hear you pose a question and not claim to have a nice neat answer is impressive Crazyhorse.