My short story,(HA)
Raised in org, pioneered with my parents until I started school. Developed a great fear of dogs and walking up to houses Our family moved to where the need was great(big mistake) My father wasn't appointed an elder at the new hall, and this was when his spirituality started to be questioned. My mom was very persitent and we all kept going. My dad was eventually DF and consequently reinstated. We went to alot of different halls, met alot of people.
I started to see the problems with love in the congregations, it really wasn't just a particlular hall, but all of them. It was then I realized that this was coming straight from the top, and became very disenchanted.
I had an abusive boyfriend(active Jw) who eventually drove me to leave the state. I was staying with my "wordly" family who were christians. My eyes were open to what Christlike really means.
I have been out for 8 years. A couple years ago I started questioning myself. I thought I would be in BIG trouble if the Jw's are right. I then contacted the local hall, explained my situation..Baptized, and inactive for 6 years. I requested to study. They sent over a very sweet couple and I studied for almost a year. I never could in my heart tell them not to come back..they were just too sweet. But I did move out of the area...freedom once again
I was brainwashed into thinking that the Jw's are the only link to God. And as an adult I visited several churches looking for thatlink. But now I know the path that is right for me. I don't need anyone organization to have a relationship with him.
OK so why am I here? I am new to the web just a few months ago I found this place. All the feelings I had when I left came rushing back. I don't feel like I am alone. No these thoughts don't rule my life, but it is so great to be able to converse with people who know what I am talking about. And it is great to realize I am not evil fo rhaving these thoughts.
My mom is still in My Dad left her a few years ago, and turned in his DA letter as well. Poor guy wanted out fo rso long. I am glad he finally has his freedom. Sad thing is our relationship is nonexistent. I can't find him! He doesn't want to be found...which I understand completly. Sevonofnine gave me some great advise on finding him. But still haven't heard from him yet, he is still lost.
SO am I happy to have left this org? Definatly, it saddens my heart to know just how many lives have been hurt by them. I hate to hear the stories of families broken, lives lost, innocense of children destroyed. I am so glad I found Simon's and all th epeople her that I have grown to love