im sorry for missing this thread the first time around, (i just saw your other post today which alerted me to it).....i had no idea about your mother. i want you to know i was very touched and saddened by your post, and i really feel for what you are going through. i know the encouragement of others helps, but at the same time there is not alot anyone can say to truly help the pain....
i lost my mother six years ago to a very rare disease (similar to cancer), and it was by far the most painful thing ive had to go through, and the pain is still there today, every day. i was very close to her, closer to her than anyone else on this planet, and i miss her more than words can say. on my parents last anniversary together (the year she died), the entire family got together (myself and my four older sisters) and us children all exchanged gifts with our parents. we knew she was close to the end, and it was a sad, tear filled night. my gift to my mother was a decorative book with the following passage printed on the open pages:
What Mom Took
Most often when we think of Mom we think of what she's given:
The softness of a loving touch, a gentle guide for living,
A nightly tip-toe in a room, An understanding look,
But, sometimes when I think of Mom I think of what she took.
She took a child and taught it how to live this life with pride,
she took those kindergarten tears, and kept them all inside.
She took the hands that longed to hold her child and not let go.
Used them to push her child along the way, to thrive and grow.
Took time to do some other things like sew, and clean and cook,
and never thought to ask for thanks for all the things she took.
i saw that book in the store, and after reading the poem and crying a few tears, i knew it was the perfect gift..........and now it sits on display in my kitchen. i re-read it occasionally, and it still brings tears to my eyes, along with many wonderful memories.
youll miss her amanda, always, and the pain will subside but never leave. im so sorry youre going through this.....you have my empathy and sympathy.
Edited by - dubla on 26 June 2002 12:51:32
Edited by - dubla on 26 June 2002 12:53:10