and i am finding the adjustment to the real world far more difficult than i ever imagined...i f...it has been about five years since i totally woke up to the fraudulant NWT and then all my other doubts i had carried for years were proved true as well
but almost all of my few friends are exjw or slack jw's and i feel so isolated...my sons friends are mostly exjw too but not their gf's and they have way more NORMAL friends
HOW have YOU done at replacing lifelong friends and family? to make things worse i have no siblings nor aunts uncles nor cousins as both my parents were only children too...and of course i never kept up with high school friends like most jws...so i have a TINY support system going here
and is anybody now way too afraid of getting old??? IT SUCKS!!!....sucks even more when you were brainwashed into believing u would never grow old and die...geeze i wanted to walk back in 1995...mindfluckers!
not wanting to be a homebody...but now i feel like one already...nothing will get better if i dont get off my ass i know...have tried meetup.com but i think i am so used to being a couple that i dont fit in solo??? geeze i need more therapy....
i know i am not alone in how much some of us have lost....and so much loss and pain...that i even thought of a last dich effort to save my marriage by going back to the...gag...kindom hall! so now u know i am really really struggling...ugh..it would kill me just to try and i would wear the purple H deservedly...but my life would be soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much easier and wealthier and omg would get a wonderful wife back....in case nobody rememers i have always said she walks on water...but stubbon and unreasoning...omg......sorry for the ramble...and i think i need a wingman or winggal is the answer...i make a great wingman btw!