I do nothing of my own accord.......
As I make my way into work I see everyone glued to the television in the conference room listening to reports of an attack by terrorists in the United States. Video is being played over and over again showing how the airplanes flew directly into the twin towers. And thereafter the buildings do colapse. Everyone can't believe what is happening and reports of all aircraft being grounded are on the news. It is a silent day and all around people having mixed feelings about the attacks. The rest is history.....
Within that week many people are thinking hey this might be the end and people are flocking to the Kingdom Hall where they are seeking out answers as to whether or not this might be the end. I recall having my son and daughter attend a special meeting that was held at the Kingdom Hall. And from that point on I diligently do research to see if this event was significant in bible prophecy. And then slowly I feel myself drawing closer to GOD and constantly seek out answers through prayer. Little by little I feel answers coming to me, and even immediately after I pray. I begin to see into the meaning of scriptures more easily.......
Reports come back to me of my son going on what later refers to as his walks. A strong urge or inspiration moves him and guides him. Walking barefoot through a foresty area known as the wetlands. In the dark of night and for miles he walks, he sees, and experiences many things. He remembers everything he went through, and can relay them to me so that I understand the meaning of it. And I remember as well.......
I am laying on the sofa and I am awakened with a sudden realization. I suddenly know what my son is going through. I am reassured by my inner feelings, and when I visit him in the hospital I look in his eyes and tell him, I believe you. A sudden calm comes over him as he seems relieved to know that someone is finally listening to him.
Within that same time period I become weakened and feel dizzy. And one night I drink a mixture of a common household remedy to help calm my stomach, and I then later I begin to feel like I am losing consciousness. I get out of bed with my then wife next to me and make my way into another room. As I stand up and return I slowly blacked out and feel to the floor. Everything seemed like it was in slow motion and I lay on the bed until I regain my thought process. So at that point I realize that I am bleeding internally so I make my way to the hospital. After my studies with Jehovah' Witness I am well aware of the need to avoid any blood transfusions. So I prepare some documents so that I can show to those at the hospital why I will refuse any blood. At that point I am thinking that perhaps this is my time of death so I prepare for it just in case.
However, during my time at the hospital I am talking on the phone with my wife because I had left my documents behind. There I was in arguement with those in the hospital who were insistant on giving me blood so that my organs would not fail. So I am waiting for information back from my wife and she is then tearful and frightened and actually pursuading me not to allow myself to die. She then does research as to why recieving blood does not seem bad and I felt that I could not present an argument to those in the hospital. The scriptures state that you should not eat blood of the animals and to abstain from it. There is no relation to anything medical or recieving human blood so it does not make sense. So I made the decision to allow them to administer a blodd transfusion.......
to be continued.......
