Well whaddya know.. you've got TWO pages already.I actually like Billy's avatar.Anywho, I feel for you Billy, I really do.The thing is, this website is full of people who can completely relate to how you feel.I personally gave up the youngest, and potentially best, years of my life...and all because I truly believed I was doing the right thing.I felt that if God really had done so much for man and who was going to do yet even more, including granting eternal life , then putting my life on hold temporarily wouldn't be that much of a problem.But I was wrong !
When I examined the Org closely, I came to realize that it was all a sham ! I spent nearly 20 years as a Witness for something that turned out to be a lie.I gave up lucrative job offers, my health was seriously affected from pushing myself excessively by trying to be a good elder and run my business, turned down relationships with "worldly" women and never got married, my Dad died while being disappointed that I was a Witness and I never even got to say goodbye, and much more.
Sadly, we can't change the past.But we can change whether or not we want to STAY THERE.If all we look at is where we WERE we will never see where we're GOING or where we could BE.Despite my regrets about being a Witness there still are some good things I can take away.I'm a better communicator, I deal with people better,study skills improved, networking ability, more responsible, more empathetic, etc, etc.Over the years we may have acquired more skills or qualities than we realize.Tap into your true potential, take a good look at what you really learned and apply that to where you want to go.
You're a smart guy, you've got skills, you have the ability to accomplish the things you want to do...please don't let the past hold you back.The remaining years you have may far outweigh what you gave up.Some people are born with severe handicaps, or they live in a poor country with little to no opportunites, but by contrast, the sheer number of opportunities we have here can be overwhelming.Sometimes the hardest part is figuring out just what it is you really want to do.Your experiences at Bethel, and your time as a Witness, can help others to cope with what they've been through and all indicators are that there are far more that are going to leave the Org, they'll need support too.We all really are in this together.I'm confident that you will get beyond this Billy and have peace of mind.