Silly and sinister!
I had no clue about the reality of apostacy! Bible study for me was amidst my working around 50 hrs and wifey home doing lots of door to door so getting the inside on the WT which she never ever discussed with me - that was a general trend in our relationship that always perplexed me and I put it down to being a woman thing cuz my mum had always been the same!
I & wifey had been a few months baptised and were at a summer football stadium convention where apostates were doing a march with banners outside the event!
Feeling full of holy spirit I decided to go witness to them and was having a good chat when suddenly I was shouted to by some guys outa the Matrix wearing shades and after my soul! My first counsel!!
I suddenly realised I could not always go forth and preach gods kingdom!!
That was my first Awake as to the Watchtowers reality!
Then I went inside and heard talk after talk saying how evil humans were and how they were all toast!
So I kinda was feeling pretty crap as a newly baptised member though wifey was in a world of her own and keeping quiet cuz others were advising her about me talking with apostates! So it was an anti climactic period amidst a numer of others that preceded it and were to come.