Once I never would have thought it possible to experience real support & compassion on a message board. How wrong I was.. Not only have many of you been there for me when I needed it, but I have also had a long-missed opportunity to give of myself by helping one or two in particular (via personal messages back & forth) who were themselves experiencing real distress. One day I hope to be able to help, in some way, anyone & everyone here that might need it.
I was contemplating suicide again in the weeks prior to coming here. The terrible agony & loneliness of not belonging (& not wanting to belong) in the Organization, combined with never finding my place in the world at large, was getting to be too much to bear. While things are still difficult, I am very glad now that I did not make that decision.
I love you all,