Back when I tried to do it. None of the so called elders really even want to listen to my concerns, all they want was for me to go pick up the long since x-monster, that drove me to that point and bring her home! At the time I was still so suicidal, I hardly ever slept at home. Some close friends gave me their door key, and many nights I slept on the couch in their living room! It's been nearly twenty years since then, and I can't tell you how often, the suicidal thought's wash over me, driving home in the pouring rain today, the thought of just running off the road and hitting a bridge, just kept popping into my mind. Sadly I truly wish, I had made it back when I tried! I feel so useless, and am just so tried of everything!
I am still stuck pretending to be a good little pee-on, I would NEVER EVER talk to a so called elder, about how I feel inside, or anything else for that matter!!!!
Dwain