I was in my mid-40s when I left and nearly 50 when I realized I was never going back. I was angry, too, that I'd given my youth to the lie (and stayed in a horrible marriage because of it). But I soon was grateful that I'd finally figured it out and began taking good care of myself so I could stay healthy and enjoy my life, hopefully into old age. I have no plans to slow down and am enjoying the freedom!
Welcome to the board and congratulations for figuring things out on your own!