i had an interesting conversation with bobby (*some names have been changed) last weekend.
he's also a successful fader going back several years before me.
but i found we had something in common that i hadn't realized.. bobby had never been particularly happy growing up.
I've become a depressed person since learning "the truth."
Now, after learning TTATT, I became severely depressed for almost a month. Not doing anything, not taking good care of my house, myself, I was literally stuck feeling all alone and empty. And I gained a lot of weight.
Now, I'm learning to go through the motions although listening to every meeting and assembly talk makes me want to puke and hope that lightning hits the building.
i was raised on lipton tea.
my mother saw tea as the solution for everything.
no matter what the problem, she'd suggest a cup of tea.
Hortensia, reading your post made me crave for tea. You write in such an engaging tone. : )
Back to the topic, I like tea and have lots of tea leaves, flavored teas, milk teas lying around at home but I'm just too lazy to prepare a drink.
My Chinese friends would always tell me to drink tea after each meal as it helps in digestion and losing weight. I think it really works for them because they never get fat although most of their food is oily..
as a fader, i'm working on a mental guide to field service.
because most of this is a mental exercise realizing that your new knowledge, the mental side of things, is what makes it so hard to preach after learning ttatt.
what presentations have you used in field service as a fader to preach the good news without preaching jw propaganda?.
I had to join the dreaded FS recently. Oh, well... I must say I have grown apathetic (since many things are LIES after all) but sometimes I would feel sorry for my partner (in her late 40's) who'd run up the street to catch a passing 'target' and just get ignored in the end.
when i was younger i enjoyed reading thrillers.
i've always enjoyed reading history books, particularly of my own country.
these days i enjoy reading books from the best seller list.
I'm looking at my bookshelf right now and most are about psychology, self-help, human relationships, space exploration, Chinese ancient wisdom, and a lot of foreign language books from European to Asian languages.
what kinds of things would you like to do if you were out of the organization?
and if you're already out and free, what kinds of things did you do that you really wanted to do but couldn't because it was against jw beleiefs?.
recently, i overheard some of the younger crowd of jw's after a meeting talking about how they wished they could have this or do that, get tattoos, play the newest video games (you know, the ones with all the violence and realistic 'kickass' graphics and such), grow out their beards for 'no shave november" wear miniskirts and dye their hair crazy colours... etc.
... probably resort to drinking and smoking to cope with my loneliness. Said my Bible study conductor.
I'd say I'd start meeting new people and guys included, to start my love life for the first time.
i have learned to stay away from all religion and jehovahs wittness doctrine (that includes the watchtower and awake magazines).
stay away from positions of ministerial servant, pioneer, aux pioneer, elder, and the like.
once you become a full fledged jehovah wittness you are doomed to be unhappy.
I agree with everything you wrote.
I felt that I had a better relationship with Him while I was still studying. I was an optimist. But, after I got baptized, my faith in God has been blurred by a lot of Watchtower doctrine. I became a pessimist and judgmental of other people. You have to be in the organization to know how it feels. And yes, I thought I was the only one feeling the emptiness and suffering in silence. I was wrong!
Thanks for your initial post and welcome to JWN.
for me, i think i went to 20 kingdom halls in my lifetime.
just a guess.
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About 14
http://www.cnn.com/2013/11/16/us/florida-spring-artifacts/index.html?hpt=hp_c2.
as evidence piles up, will we reach a tipping point where people begin accepting the age of humans existence?.
he described as "phenomenal" the preservation of the finds, whose location as many as 5 feet deep in oxygen-free sediment had protected them from decay.. they include a suwannee projectile point -- a spear point -- whose estimated age of 10,000 years puts it "right at the cusp of the end of the ice age," arbuthnot said.
This can't be true....! This is the work of Satan!
after being out of the borg for a year and a half, weve dealt with a lot of nonsense from local elders stopping by unannounced, well-meaning do-gooders trying to encourage us.
somehow weve managed to get through this without getting dfd/dad.
for me the worst part of it all has been that much of my family has shunned me, and stopped talking to me, as soon as they heard through the grapevine that i wasnt going to meetings.
It makes me really sad just reading your stories. These things are unimaginable... I am just thankful that I am the only one in the family stuck in the "truth". For those who are still studying to become one of JWs, I hope you are able to read this and know the reality.
i tend to look at people and situations with a little bit of humor.
i tend to feel that many view themselves as being better than they really are.
people's perceptions are often skewered.
Before I became a JW: "I need to study hard, do my best, and become successful so that I can help my family and community in the future.."
While studying to become a JW: "Yay! Why did I not know these things before?! ... And they're so loving. "
As a JW, pre-TTATT: "Gosh, these people (referring to the "worldly" ones) ... "
As a JW, after knowing TTATT: " (Thunder, lightning, ground-shaking) Dear God, why did I put blind faith in all these things?! How gullible of me.. "
