Charmed

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  I never thought in a million years..

  by thegentleman in

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  that i would love a jw gal.. deep down i am a hopeless romantic at heart.

  i had given her a heart-shaped necklace and i told her "that this symbolizes me giving my heart to you".

  we have been through good times and bad , maybe its just me, i go all out when i'm passionate about something.

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  I am so sorry and I do know what you must be feeling. I was once just like the girl that you so deeply love. I left the love of my life for three months...no calls, no visits, no emails, nothing. I totally cut him out of my life because that's what the Elders told me that I had to do for Jehovah to forgive me. I was in hell. On the one hand, I didn't want to leave my family or all the friends I had known growing up my whole life. On the other hand, I didn't want to leave my honey. I didn't want to live in a world where no true unconditional love existed. I was deeply depressed and even attempted suicide several times.

  Eventually, the love of my life emailed me a nasty drunken letter claiming my religion was a cult and that I was brainwashed. Well, I had to defend the "truth," so I emailed back defending myself and my religion. This ended up opening the door for more communication and eventually he introduced me to Crisis of Conscience and sites like this one, although not this one in particular. Now, we are going on 2 years happily married. It was not easy, and I would never wish that hell on my worst enemy.

  I don't know if your story can have such a good ending, but I think that if it's meant to be it will find a way to work itself out. I am so sorry this is happening to you. My heart is with you and even with the girl who had to give up such a wonderful man. ((((hugs))))
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  Can you eat blood now?

  by Brummie in

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  i have no trouble with transfusions to save peoples lives but recently we went to a wedding and one of my little lads had been up to the buffet and come back with a plate of food, on it was little circles of black pudding (blood sausage), he didnt know what it was (i have never brought it home so he hasnt seen it before) but just threw it on his plate anyway.

  while he wasnt looking i took it off and threw it away!

  couldnt bring myself to let him eat it and i still couldnt eat it because of the background in jws.

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  Charmed

  Mustang, You should be on Fear Factor! Live Shrimp?! That is so gross!!

  I think it's a big accomplishment that I can order a steak medium well now. I used to have to have it be burnt practically before I'd touch it. I remember my grandmother making me cube steak when I was little that was a little red. I had to tell her that I couldn't eat blood.

  I would have no problem with a blood transfusion though. I've even given blood a couple of times. I still feel like I'm doing something wrong when I go donate, but I like to be naughty!
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  My life story... by Confuzcious.

  by confuzcious in

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  hello friends,.

  since i'm not going to the memorial for the first time since i've became a witness, i wanted to post my "j dub" life story as a form of therapy.. i guess i'm posting this here, also, as sort of a refreshment for others who taken this road.

  after much study, i've finally disassociated myself - in my heart at least.

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  Charmed

  I am also missing the Memorial for the first time this year. I'm a little scared that my family will be upset, but I've been living my life to please them for so long and I just can't do it anymore.

  May we both find peace inside ourselves on Wednesday night:) Thank you for sharing your story. It may be therapeutic for you to share, but it's also quite therapeutic for me to read.

  Charmed
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  Cost of War

  by hippikon in

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  ive seen estimates that the war in iraq has cost so far $160,000,000,000 us

  imagine what you could buy with that kind of money

  1,600 hospitals

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  Charmed

  Sheesh! That's alot of money. Maybe we should cut taxes...
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  Kingdom melodie haunting me

  by Vivamus in

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  omg, how horrible is this:.

  you know when you have a certain tune in your head, and you just can't figure out which one it is?

  well, i just figured mine out, its "hey daar al gij dorstigen, komt en drink het levenswater vrij".

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  Don't feel bad Viv, It's really not your fault. I just have 'issues' Thanks for the welcome!! I've been lurking for quite awhile, but I felt it was time to speak up!
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  HELP US CELEBRATE PLEEEEEEEEEEASE....

  by nightwarrior in

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  our son ben is celebrating his 15th birthday on friday 11, but actually it is his 1st birthday aswell.. so please help us celebrate with him be sending him some cool messages.

  he is really excited, and he is getting some cool pressies.

  he has been really funny, but it is lovely to see.. we would really appreciate it.. thanks everyone.

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  Charmed

  Happy Birthday!!!

  I didn't get to celebrate my "first" birthday until I was 22, so congrats!!! I hope yours is as happy as mine was that day!!! Eat lots of cake and don't be afraid to take the corners (they have the most frosting:)
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  Memorial - Question of the Year

  by Mystery in

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  no one has come to my door yet.

  i know that someone in my family called a couple of years ago and gave them my address.

  they have dropped by a couple of times.

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  FunkyDerek: That's an interesting question. Thanks for bringing that up!

  Uzza: I can't believe that is actually what the WT says! This is something that as a good brainwashed member I would have accepted w/o question. I'm sure my family accepts that explanation w/o question. So do they still believe that Christ's return in 1914 was invisible or is it just that he's not totally here yet. I'm a little confused. I question things now, you see.
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  Kingdom melodie haunting me

  by Vivamus in

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  omg, how horrible is this:.

  you know when you have a certain tune in your head, and you just can't figure out which one it is?

  well, i just figured mine out, its "hey daar al gij dorstigen, komt en drink het levenswater vrij".

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  Charmed

  Listening to the Life's Water song and then being reminded of the We're JW song just made my heart jump. It's weird that after being gone for so long these songs still affect me. It's almost like a sadness. I guess because when I was little I used to love those songs and now they just represent all the lies I was told for so many years. Sometimes I wish I could just forget what I've learned since reading Crisis of Conscience and discovering the whole religion is a scam because then I could just be blissfully ignorant with my family again. But, I can't go back, y'know. I just miss them and these songs made me think about how much I miss them.
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  Whats the aftermath for you?

  by Brummie in

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  people who have never been jws seem to think we can simply walk away from it "get a life" and move on (as if we dont have a life or something).

  i was wondering what consequences you peronally suffer for having been a jw?

  depersonalisation, depression, keeping people at a distance, none...etc?.

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  Charmed

  I have been diagnosed with depression since my family recently told me that if I had "turned my back on Jehovah," they would never speak to me again. I used to be a very happy-go-lucky sort of person, and I wish I could get that back.

  I also find that I have trouble making decisions. I'm always worried that I'll make the wrong decision. I think this is because when I was a JW, all decisions were made for me.
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  Hey, I've had another article published

  by RunningMan in

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  i was doing some musing about prayer the other day, and another article popped out.

  for anyone interested, it is at: http://www.liberator.net/articles/adamsken/powerprayer.html

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  Charmed

  Hey, this is my first post...so please bear with me if I screw it up at all.

  I remember when I was little, I believed in prayer so fervently. Of course, this was based on me praying to God one time to find a penny that I'd lost and just as I said amen and opened my eyes, there it was! I was convinced from then on that prayer really worked wonders.

  Now that I'm older and a little wiser, I still pray but not because I'm convinced it will fix everything. Mostly, I just think praying gives me a chance to sit and think about what I am thankful for that day. And sometimes after I do that, I feel better able to conquer my own problems or deal with my own daily stress.

  When I first left the organization, I was angry at God and I never prayed. Now, I'm just angry at the organization and sometimes I'm still angry at my family for choosing the organization in the first place.

  Anyways, that's just my take on prayer.