Lack of love and Watchtower doctrine are part of the same
ecosystem. The doctrine causes a lack of love. People act in ways they don’t
want to, because they are convinced the doctrine is right.
“I really don’t want to shun you, but Jehovah wants me to.
How do I know that? Because the Bible says so. How do I know that interpretation
of the Bible is the right one? First, we don’t interpret the Bible, but we
kinda sort do, and because the Faithful Slave was appointed by Jesus in 1919 to
help us understand the Bible. Oh, 1919? Well you see, Jesus came back invisibly
in 1914 and a few years later appointed his Slave. Oh, 1914? Well you add 2520
years to 607 BC… So you see I have to shun you.”
Although a lack of love caused great cognitive dissonance over
the years, had I believed it was The Truth, I’d be sitting in the Kingdom Hall
front row center and knocking on doors. I’d slog it out best I could. No matter
the problems, I’d says, “Well, but it’s still the Truth.”
In a way, it was lack of love, actually, seeing not just a
lack of love, but the monstrous heart of the organization, that was the catalyst
to finally six months afterward examine whether or not it was the Truth. But if
I examined the teachings and merely came away with unclear whether or not it
was, if the waters were too muddy, I’d still have hung in there. But as the evidence started rolling in, I no longer had doubts, but certainties. Of course, now I look back and see all their doctrine is nonsense upon nonsense and wonder why it took so long for me to figure it out.
