OneDayillBeFree
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Help me...!
by OneDayillBeFree inlost my job, just a week before making the final arrangements to move into my very own apartment.. got a speeding ticket on the following sunday for trying to make it to the meeting "on time", (never made it to the hall, just parked in the back of a shopping center for 2 hours in silence).. marked by the elders for quitting pioneering, no more commenting and "failing to adhere to bible counsel".. jw family sees me as a disappointment.
non-jw family is too far away to care.. found out ex-girlfriend got df'ed and is now pregnant.
puts some of the blame on me for how things turned out.. realizing that she's not entirely wrong as i was still an ignorant, kiss-ass, die hard jwdub when we started dating, always putting the "kingdom interests first" never having time for her since "the end was so freaking close" and then warping her up in the mess of me learning ttatt.. dwelling night after night in "what could have been" if i had never been a jw.. alternating between being a theist, atheist and agnostic on a daily basis to the point where i don't care anymore yet getting creeped the f*ck out when facing my own mortality and the thought of me dying alone.. always coming to the same conclusion, when i find myself alone on friday nights and weekends, that i have no actual friends, only two conditional jw "friends" which are both currently out of town for about a month and 0 real, non-jw friends.. haven't been able to sleep well in literally weeks now.
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Interesting changes for the 2014 service meeting...
by OneDayillBeFree inif you look at the first page of the kingdom ministry for december (link here), read the talk entitled: "the theocratic ministry school for 2014".
here is a copy of what it says (bold & red mine).
talk by the school overseer.
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If I was out I'd...
by OneDayillBeFree inwhat kinds of things would you like to do if you were out of the organization?
and if you're already out and free, what kinds of things did you do that you really wanted to do but couldn't because it was against jw beleiefs?.
recently, i overheard some of the younger crowd of jw's after a meeting talking about how they wished they could have this or do that, get tattoos, play the newest video games (you know, the ones with all the violence and realistic 'kickass' graphics and such), grow out their beards for 'no shave november" wear miniskirts and dye their hair crazy colours... etc.
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Dropping itty bitty bits of Truth About The Truth to other Witnesses!
by OneDayillBeFree inthis'll probably get me disfellowshipped eventually but it's been hella fun!.
so lately every time an opportunity arrises while speaking to other jdubs at the meetings or assemblies or even just overhearing their conversations about new light or new publications, service, anything really i drop little things that pass unoticed by most but make some stop and think for a minute.. for example, after one sunday meeting, a brother came up to me with about 5 other jdubbies to poke fun at me saying, "i thought you said you never sat at the front?!
huh?
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2013 District Convention God's Word Is Truth MP3 is ready!
by OneDayillBeFree inalright.
so i got a sendspace and uploaded the whole thing except for the songs and morning music.. the link to all the mp3's is here!
for some reason it starts with the last talk first but they're all numbered and titled according to the convention so it should'nt be too hard i hope.. do with them what you please, upload them to youtube, send them to friends & family, or just see how far you can stomach some of the "fine spiritual food that the faithful and discreet slave has prepared for us this year".. some key talks you might wanna listen to are 12 symposium: the truth sets us free, 16 believe inspired truth, not inspired error, 20 symposium: reject what is false!
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One of the hardest things I must do while in...
by OneDayillBeFree inive had many single sisters (even the hot ones that horny brothers like to circle around during intermissions at assemblies/conventions) come to me recently asking if im single, what my spiritual goals are and how high in the ranks i am.
i just tell them that im not interested in relationships at the moment and that my focus is on other things.
they usually get the message and leave me alone.. but i lie.. .
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Anyone wanna copy of the entire God's word is truth District Convention 2013 recording?
by OneDayillBeFree ini somehow got my hands on a high quality mp3 cd of the whole thing.
i don't know how to upload it online but i'll give it a shot if anyone here wants it.. any good sites to post audio online?.
onedayillbefree.
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Anyone wanna copy of the entire God's word is truth District Convention 2013 recording?
by OneDayillBeFree ini somehow got my hands on a high quality mp3 cd of the whole thing.
i don't know how to upload it online but i'll give it a shot if anyone here wants it.. any good sites to post audio online?.
onedayillbefree.
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Moving out, away and starting a new post JW life
by OneDayillBeFree inrecently at my last meeting, an older brother "in good standing" got disfellowshipped.. sitting only two seats away from him, i saw as he burst into tears as lifelong friends and family began their shunning and immediate gossip in the form of whispers came up from above the brothers and sisters in the kingdom hall.
i felt like giving him a hug and telling him that it was going to be okay and that whatever the reason for his disfellowshipment was, it didnt matter and that god still loved him but before i could muscle up enough courage to do so, he stood up in tears and left.. i shed a few silent tears for him.
i didn't see anyone else do the same.. it was at that moment that i realized without a doubt that living this way is just not worth it at all.. so i've thought about it long and hard and now i just want to move far away and just start new again.
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I need a vacation...
by OneDayillBeFree inthe last time i took one was around 4 years ago!
and the thing is i could take a vacation whenever i'd like, except i have no one to go with and no actual place to go to.. it's depressing really.
the fact that i'm fully capable of going anywhere yet i can't because the only people i'd be "approved" of going with would be jw's.