Sorry for the late responses but I've been at the hospital since last night because my aunt went into labor and her husband was out of town. It's a girl if anyone was wondering. Also sorry for any typos, I'm posting on my phone.
First of all, I want to thank all of you for your responses! They all really mean a lot to me, and they've helped me so much.
Secondly, I wanted to clarify a few things.
I did not get my ex-gf pregnant. I found out about it when we randomly met at a store in the mall. It did still makes me feel a bit bad for what happened. It's like a mixture of sadness and anger if that explains anything. But like many of you have said, the past is the past and there's nothing I can do but move on.
Also, I paid the ticket the day after, but the fact that for a moment I believed that maybe I should return to the meetings and just deal with all the watchtower's BS, and then getting a ticket for trying, idk it kind of felt like a sign, although I'm not the kind of person that thinks about occurrences in that way. It also troubles me because my insurance might go up and with the jobless situation I'm currently in, it has stressed me out a lot.
Speaking of jobs, I've been submitting resumes and cover letters like crazy. And there's some options that have come up that I didn't know I had thanks to a poster in this forum.
I'm also located in the southeastern part of the USA. I know some of you were wondering. I can't give out my exact location for obvious reasons but I will once I'm out.
I also checked out the therapist section of this hospital I've been in. Got a few brochures on therapy and treatment. I guess it's rather obvious I suffer from depression. I'll give them a call tomorrow and set up an appt.
I'm not sure if I covered everything but I just want to thank you all once more for being there for me! No matter the differences you all might have, you guys are all great!
OneDay