I’ve had many single sisters (even the hot one’s that horny brothers like to circle around during intermissions at assemblies/conventions) come to me recently asking if I’m single, what my spiritual goals are and how high in the ranks I am. I just tell them that I’m not interested in relationships at the moment and that my focus is on other things. They usually get the message and leave me alone.
But I lie.
I’d very much like to be in a relationship with someone. But I force myself to say no due to the fact that I know I couldn’t be with someone who I couldn’t trust 100% with how I really feel about this religious-business-corporation, and who didn’t see this religion for what it really is.
Also I absolutely hate the JW way of dating. It’s terrible. You could never get to know someone well by dating the way the GB wants you to.
And it’s not only JW girls, but regular worldly (I hate that term) girls that I must turn down too. The reason for that is because if I’m going to have a girlfriend, I want to be committed and honest to her and I don’t plan to hide any part of who I am and that would jeopardize my fade. My only reasonable option is to wait until I’m free from the chains of this religion to finally start dating.
And I hate that.
One thing I’ve thought of and daydreamed about especially during assemblies/conventions is bumping into someone who is a JW but also awake and knows TTATT. And I’m pretty sure that there are many young people out there who are just like me. But we hide behind this thin veneer of watchtower rules and JW speak. We rarely let our guards down in public and normally wait at least until we’re all alone.
Oh the shit this religion makes you go through.