I was 12. My maternal grandmother was dying of bone cancer. Armageddon was not really something we thought of during that time because all of us were deeply grieving. She knew she was gravely ill too. This was the first of many significant family illnesses and deaths for me. All of my family born on or before 1914 have passed away. Not one of them saw 'the end of this system of things and paradise Earth'.
But fast forward 7 years and Mom is trying to convince me and my younger bro that we shouldn't be planning to go to College because we won't be needing careers due to Armageddon's imminence.
That period of time, from age 10 to 19 was pivotal for me. I began doubting the existence of God or at least, the claims religion made about God. I had also figured out I could not be a JW due to the misogyny, disagreement with the Watchtower's interpretation of scripture, their constant extension beyond scripture, and the blood policy just to name a few.
One of the biggest issues I have with the whole 1975 debacle is that Watchtower actually had the gall to blame the R&F JWs for 'running ahead of the organization' at expecting Armageddon to arrive in 1975. WTF?!
Watchtower's legacy isn't a very stellar one, is it?