Pretty soon you'll be an old pro at doing "the fade" (not to be confused with "the wave"). When we first left, I constantly thought that BIG BROTHER was looking over my shoulder at everything I did. I skulked around the greeting card aisle when I needed a birthday card like any moment someone from the KH would "catch" me in The Act of Buying Pagan Cards. I was afraid to buy x-mas cards at the store so I ordered them on-line. I felt like such a coward.
But as time goes on...you'll get much better at not putting a guilt trip on yourself because you choose to leave a false religion. Just yesterday I was buying a few items at our local Kohl's store...and the check-out was being manned/womaned by a person from our old congregation. I had on a short-sleeve shirt and my tattoo on my right arm was perfectly visible (and quite lovely I might add). It didn't even cross my mind to avoid the check-out. I trooped through there and kept my arm in full view. She treated me quite nicely...just like any customer. So I give her kudo's for that. But then again...that is her job. SHE didn't have a choice. Treat a customer badly and you might get the axe. I mention this because a few years ago I may have waited for another check-out to open or even left the store without my purchases.
Just keep your head up. We've got nothing to be ashamed of. They do. It takes time though my dear...it takes time.
cathy l.