We have alot in common. It's great to see your hubby is going to college. You guys could cut back and both go. Get an education. You didn't lose your brains just because a little light came on inside your head. Even if your husband gets into a field where he can make ridiculous money--you get an education anyway. It's a great way to learn about yourself. I can only speak from my best friend's perspective--I never went.
Its hard growing up with all those rules. Just trying to be a decent person is hard enough. The thing is they equate Jehovah not loving you anymore with all those rules. It's enough to break a person's spirit. Welcome, and keep us posted. It was so great to meet you.