fullofdoubtnow
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Had a nice surprise today
by fullofdoubtnow ini had a phone call today from an old friend and, to be honest, it was one i had been dreading.
the lady in question used to be my pioneer partner, we got baptised on the same day, march 26th 1983, and started pioneering at the same time, and have been friends for well over 20 years.. a few years ago yvonne and her husband steve left derby and moved to south wales, but we have kept in touch, and i have visited them on several occasions, but haven't told them that i am no longer a jw, so when i got the call today i thought she was ringing me about our baptism anniversary, which would have been this sunday.
she had tried ringing my old number, which i am no longer on, and decided to try my mobile.
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Career change, well maybe....
by fullofdoubtnow inas those of you who have read some of my earlier posts may know, my ambition when i left university in 1981 was to be an english teacher, having gained a degree in english.
then the jws came a - knocking, i became a jw and kind of changed my ambitions, taking on part - time cleaning and/or office work so that i could spend more time in service and pioneer.
it's only since leaving the wts that i have worked full - time, in the office where i have been working part time for several years.. well, things could be about to change for me.
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dedpoet's birthday today - he's 55!
by fullofdoubtnow init's dedpoet's 55th birthday today, although he celebrated it on saturday with a great party, had a special beer brewed etc.
he doesn't drink much usually, but was extremely drunk on saturday lol.
he took some getting home, but we made it!!.
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what have you learned since you left the org?
by fullofdoubtnow ini have learned so much about the org since i da'd - the truth about the un scandal, the false reasoning regarding the 1914 doctrine, how widespread a problem child abuse really is in the org, things that i would never have found out if i was still in.
i can also understand why the gb don't like jws accessing the internet, there is far too much information about the wts on there for their liking.. the most important thing i have learned, or perhaps re - learned however, is the value of true, non - conditional friendship.
for so many years i thought the jws i mixed with were my true friends, but now i know they are not.
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has your language changed since you left?
by fullofdoubtnow ini know mine has.
i went back to my flat earlier this afternoon to pick some things up, i am moving out of there slowly, and was carrying a heavy box out to my car when i stumbled and dropped it on my foot.
it wasn't too painful, thankfully, but i came out with a stream of expletives, most of them beginning with f. when i was a jw, even thinking those words would have filled me with shame.
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Goin' back
by fullofdoubtnow inno, not to the jws, never again.
it was always my ambition pre - jw to be an english teacher.
i have a degree in english, but i thought it was too late, after so many years, to pursue my original career plans.
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I just want to share this
by fullofdoubtnow inthis is a poem dedpoet wrote for me, he gave it to me a few minutes ago, and i think it is so lovely i just have to post it (he doesn't mind).
i hope you like it, i know i will treasure it for the rest of my life.
for linda.
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finishing the year in style
by fullofdoubtnow inwell, it's december 31st, so happy new year everyone.
as i look back on the last 12 months and how much has changed in my life, i can hardly take it all in.
at the start of this year, i was still very much a jw, though having more than a few doubts.
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My best friends story
by fullofdoubtnow inthis is dedpoets story of his time in the wt, and of how he left.
he's been meaning to write it for some time, but not got around to it.
he gave me his permission to post it, as i'm hijacking his pc again.
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Having a senior moment...
by fullofdoubtnow inwell, this is my 250th post, which makes me a senior member of jwd, so i have something else to celebrate as well as my freedom, which i feel like celebrating every day, and christmas, which for the first time in 25 or so years, i have really enjoyed.. this board has been so important to me as i break free from the wt, i have made friends here, far more than i have lost since i da'd a few months ago, and non - conditional friends at that.
i just want to thank you all, it would have been so much harder to break free without your support and advice.
of course, dedpoet has been a great support for me, i don't think there are words to describe how much he has helped me (here i am hijacking his pc again lol).