I want to be the nurse that encourages the blood transfusions!!!! Besides, someone has to know how to dial that "911"number when all the old gesers realize they've been replaced with the enemy!
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Anointed Apostates YOU choose.
by IronClaw inok lets have some fun, so who would you pick to be .
a. of the apostate anointed class(limit to only 144,000), and.
b. of that class who would you vote in as part of the governing body?.
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New here,i hope someone might help,my abuser hung himself
by Linzlou24 inhi,ummm ive just discovered this site and im not sure why im even writing this but im at rockbottom and i dont know how feel,maybe im just searching to find someone who might understand and help me understand because i feel so alone and ashamed,confused and sad,even people might find me bad because of how these events turned...but im not bad inside,ive always been such a soft caring person at heart,im a good person just always been lost,alone and confused....ill try not babble too much but from the beggining dad was here one minute,not the next and then not at all,to this day still never bothers,mum remarried when i was about 4,this was the guy who sexually abused me at 7,{mum never knew},they had a baby together...i found my brother dead in his cot,he died from cotdeath,and it was just all downhill from there with my life,that was after my brother i was abused by him....they split when i was around 8 and i guess my mum looking back now on it now just went on her own mission but it wasnt easy for me,she fell for another guy and we moved from one place to the next,every time i started a new school and made friends,it was time pack up and go and start all over.....
mum settled again and remarried a third time when i was around 12,id started a new high school,maybe its just those teens but i went off the rails with mum,i was terrible,didnt mean to be,but i blamed her for all my hurt and life and id rebel at everything,drinking started,running away started and i just wish now i could have felt close when alls i wanted was to love and be loved back...the next bit until now{im 25 now} is what is killing more than ever and id very much appreciate your thoughts because im lower than ever and still scared....mum is very much here in my life now...its only been a few months but shes heartbroken and the love and understanding has been tremendous off her,she blames herself but i blame me.....
when i started the new highschool i met this girl,she became my friend at the time and it was so good to have a friend id do anything she said....anyway she needed some money once and said i know this guy you can come to with me and he will pay you to touch your boobs,thats when it started i agreed because if i said no then shed probably laughed at me,so i went....,it sounds strange{he was nearly 50} but he was very very nice,and said i dont like the person whos brought you up here,shes nasty...,i hated him touch me but i was scared....but at same time i felt i could really trust him,me and this girl never did stay friends....theres another big big part in all of this,but from 13 this guy became the bestest friend i ever had in my whole life,but everything was a big secret,its lasted years...he had an hold over me,though i knew he was supposed be my friend i knew he musnt really be one else he wouldnt put me through the torture of crying and not coping when i had my baby...my babe is 8now but still when i let him touch my boobs so i can buy the best part of my life something nice or take him somewhere that man would buy bigger and better and undermine all my hurt....
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Linzlou-
Welcome to our family here. If you hang around, which I pray you will, you'll find alot of love and support. Everyone gave you good advice, so I won't repeat it. I was molested for years. When I turned him into child welfare services he did loose his marriage. Sometimes I wish he'd have lost ALOT more, if you know what I mean.
I know it's hard not to feel responsible. But you should own NONE of the guilt. You have saved others from being abused. He was the coward. He couldn't own up to his guilt. There is one less pedophile (spelling sucks I know) to prey on the helpless.You should be proud of yourself for having the courage to speak up!!
shelley
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Thanks frog---Now that song is ringing in my head and won't get out!!!! I may have to go knock my head against a brick wall!
shelley
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The Bomb
by Dr Jekyll ini found this in another thread and thought it needed more attention.
this describes my falling away to a t and explains so much about who i am today.... anyone else have anything else to say on this?.
the bomb .
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crazyblondeb
I agree that tells pretty much the whole picture. I know when I left I "snapped"! There was to be another elders' meeting with me that very night. I snapped because I couldn't and wouldn't deal with those pompous assholes again.
shelley
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Have you ever bit your lip?
by CountryGuy inokay, this is a strange request, but i'm desperate... i have bit my lip too many times.
i bit it for the first time on sunday and have bitten it about 10 times since!
no matter how careful i am, i keep biting it!
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thanks for the suggestion. She went to a meeting right now. CO is in town. She'll probably come home babbling more shit. Trust me, I'll be out smoking. Will probably try the ice cube thing. Just took a sleeping pill, actually 2 of them.
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check out this CNN article about dad fighting JWs over daughter's death
by crazyblondeb ini hope i do this right.
http://www.cnn.com/2006/world/americas/03/01/jehovah.suit.ap/index.html.
he can't sue the wbts, but can sue their lawyers.
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Thanks blondie, guess I'm a little behind!
shelley
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I might be going back to the kingdumb hall !!
by boy@crossroads ini'm thinking about going back to the meetings.
hopefully just sunday meetings for awhile.
not because i want to or that i feel any inward guilt to return.
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crazyblondeb
Question, if they moved into your place knowing you were inactive, why worry about trying to impress them. Take care of yourself, first. How long do you think you can tolerate going to the KH without puking? Better take a barf sack, in case!!
shelley
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check out this CNN article about dad fighting JWs over daughter's death
by crazyblondeb ini hope i do this right.
http://www.cnn.com/2006/world/americas/03/01/jehovah.suit.ap/index.html.
he can't sue the wbts, but can sue their lawyers.
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I hope I do this right. http://www.cnn.com/2006/WORLD/americas/03/01/jehovah.suit.ap/index.html
He can't sue the WBTS, but can sue their lawyers.
shelley
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Have you ever bit your lip?
by CountryGuy inokay, this is a strange request, but i'm desperate... i have bit my lip too many times.
i bit it for the first time on sunday and have bitten it about 10 times since!
no matter how careful i am, i keep biting it!
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I've been biting my lip for the last 2 hours. My JW mom is making me crazy! We just got into it about my computer activities. She thinks cause I'm on this site someone is going to brake into her computer and do things to it. I guess like demonize it. I wish I could put smurfs on her screensaver! AAARGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ***shelley biting tongue and lip, wishing for a bottle of tequilia!!***
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Did you know any JW's elder that committed Aldutery and was not removed?
by booker-t indo you know of any jw's elder that committed adultery but still remained as an elder?
do you think that the other elders swept it under the carpet?
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crazyblondeb
I knew an elder that was seeing a girl in the congregation that was my age at the time. She was about 17, and he was early 50's. They did this with the blessing of his wife. Actually, his wife was teaching her how to do everything for her husband so that if anything happened to the wife, there would be someone there for him. This went on for many years till they got busted. He just moved away, but continued being an elder in south Missouri.
shelley