Oops.
I posted before reading the last 8 posts or so.
RHCP I have no idea what happened but I'm thinking of a few of my own break-downs / act-outs over the years. Your real friends will see you through. Don't shut them out. So many people here obviously love and care for you. Stay quiet if you feel you must but don't shut out the people you have come to know as your friends. Please stay.
Take a deep breath. Let it out slowly. Take another breath. Out slow.
and peek in here once in a while.
Send a pm to a friend or two.
Let the people who truly love and respect your feelings show that love and respect to you.