Onacruse,
****"Craig, perhaps you're so (too?) diffident simply because you're still more or less acting according to your JW conditioning?" This is a very real possibility. Perhaps a year or two down the line I'll be unrecognizably more strident and confrontational than I am now. ****
As I look back over the bumps in the road life seems to deliver, almost without exception everyone of them was exacerbated by my being strident and confrontational.
In very recent years I have witnessed fellow associates at work, lose their jobs by exercising to strident and confrontational methods in the work place. Some of these guys were absolutely in the right, to act and feel the way they did. Yet because they took an unbending, in your face stand they are now unemployed. Some have contacted me saying that they wish they could have been more diplomatic.
Those type lessons take a toll on the pocket book, not to mention the bridges one burns in the process. Burning bridges by demeaning, crushing the spirit of those we meet on line, people we share a common bond of surviving the ravages of membership in a cult, is to me the most assinine of conduct. What possible reward can come from such harshness?
So Onacruse I hope the opposite for you. It took me many years out of the org. to recognize the judgemental, strident, confrontational side of my personality was still very visible. When I saw it was a handicap, is when I started turning the corner in all my relationships.
All of the above by no means means that you turn into a pushover, or some kind of wallflower. In fact the exercise of restraint in the area of harsh to other's, is in the purest sense a very manly, grown up way of dealing with others.
Danny